Dreams

It's 12:37am, Monday morning.
Amazing... never would have dream that of all places to blog about my life, i will be blogging in the hospital. with my sis sleeping by my side.

*takes a deep breath*
Where should I start.
Recently i've been reflecting alot. Maybe because i had been having too much time waiting and i started to think about the different things that is going on right now in my life.

I think about work.. family... life and dreams.
I often question myself ever since i quit my previous company.. If the choice that i made today was right.
I remember i blogged about how simple people live when i met different ones in Australia. Running after their passion to feed the poor. I started looking forward to that kinda life as i quit my job. Of cause, different company has different imperfection. Although i'm still happy with my current job, it will not change the fact that many times as i set infront of my desk looking into my computer and wonder if life could have been different if i were to continue with my previous job or landing myself in another company. How would life be if i'm running production right now. Filming stories, having an entitlement of some credits that runs after the programme. I wonder many times how it would have been. Often times i had to stopped myself from thinking about it but only to be reminded about the purpose of me coming to my current job.

Family. One of the major reason of landing in the current job was to have more time with my family. Knowing that my industry is an industry that never sleeps i reckon that with my current job it would allow me to spend more time at home and indeed i had. I looked at my sister now, knowing how much pain she had to go through. Like any mothers or sisters, we wish we could ease out the pain for her. if there is anything we could do to make her feel better i'm willing. I see the face of rest on her face makes me appreciates having her by my side. I'm really tired but right now, i just wants her to be by my side. Walking through her every single pain, joy, sorrow.. whatever it is.. I want her to know that i'm always by her side cheering her up for her. Though i missed the days we had before but today i'm reminded of the good that is still ahead.

He’ll wipe every tear from our eyes
And make everything new just like He promised
Wait and see
Just wait and see
Wait and see

We'll taste and see that the Lord is good
The Lord is good
The Lord is good

- "See" Steven curtis chapman