The Sister that i'm so proud of.

It is 10:13pm, 17th May.
I'm sitting on the bed blogging about the beginning journey of my week.
It's seem that with the previous blogs i've learn to understand and talk about my family more
often then i realized.

Anyhow. Ever since yesterday i guess my days were pretty surreal i would say.
Things that i thought i would only encounter in TV has become reality in my life.
Remembering how i always grew up with my 10 years younger sister, I use to hate being around her when i was young. I didn't like so many things about how things were.
But as you grow older you realized it's a responsibility when the young ones looks up to you as a role model.
I begin to observe how much my sister model after me.
Things i do, things i say, how i look at things she never fails to ask me about her school homework.
Although many times i do feel bad sweeping her away but i guess when you are older you realized the need in their lives.

The past few months have been very challenging.
Knowing that today is the day that she will be going for her major operation. I find all ways to communicate with her and to calm her down to know that this is the one thing she had to go through and we have to go through knowing that it is for the better for the future.
I joked with her yesterday morning. Many offer their prayers to her. I prepare her stuff with her and stayed through the night with her. I knew she is prepared for this but i can never understand the fear that is going through in her heart that she hardly shows. I stayed up late looking at her and just praying that God will be with her and let her rest in the process. Asked him for his peace to fill up her heart.

Morning came and this is the moment when her biggest challenge comes. She cried silently to herself as she is being rowed into the operating recept. Mum and I waited the whole day and to find ourselves receiving the news that everything went really well. At that moment, i couldn't ask anything more but to praise God for him making everything well. I'm so proud of my little sister. I use to fear how she would run away from all the needles but no she stood firm and gave her best shot through the process. She didn't cry from the needles but she went with confidence. Although now she is in the ICU after an asthma attack right after the operation, i looked at her today knowing she had overcome so much. She did not just go for an operation that will give her confidence in her body but she had gone for an operation that have gain her confidence in her character. And I know God had mold her during the whole process of this operation.

I looked at her today, knowing that she had made me proud of what she had gone through.
What more should worry or to ask but only to also give my best shot to be there for her, encourage her and walk through this journey with her.

She do not need to know how much she had suffered, because she knew it all along.
But what she needs is the encouragement that only I can give.

Zoe. Small as you are, you have faith and confidence like a mountain.
I'm so Proud of you buddy and I will stand by your side in every walk of your life.

You did it buddy. :)

You will be heal in Jesus Name.