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明天会更好吗？

2011-08-31T17:01:00.002+08:00

8月31日雨天

好啦。又是一天了。今天一醒来时心里就不知为什么好想好想逃避在面前的路。过去的四天以为病了，妈妈不让我出去就只好呆在家和妹妹在一起。妹妹啊，就是那么可爱。每天鼓力我说“姐今天你可以走来走去了，有进步哦。”每次听到妹妹那么大勇气的声音我都会跟自己说妹妹有一天一定能改变她的世界，鼓励人，改变人。

然后呢，我就想到妈妈。付出那么多的妈妈。每天说笑话多多的妈妈，不停的为我和妹付出的美丽妈妈。在着几天里我想我从来没想念妈妈那么多。每次听到她要回来了就那么高兴。我想啊如果不是妈妈我今天都不知到会是着摸样。

说了那么多一定在想为什么我还想逃避？咳！以该是为了几年前还没解决的问题吧。每天都要想要说什么来回答为了就是不要把小是恼成大是。可是看来问题还是没变反儿变得更大，不知道几时才能让它解束。好累啊好累，一想到时都会把自己藏起来对自己大哭一下。咳。累了上帝爸爸。

明天会更好吗？：｜

Running back to your arms

2011-01-14T08:09:00.002+08:00

It's about 8:13am in the morning.

I was early at work. Mum needs to get to her office so she offered a ride to work.

This morning waking up feeling kinda crappy.

Questioning myself why... what.. and how..

Sense of betrayer and being such a loser to trust what anyone said, knowing that how untrustful and how unwilling i am to fulfilled what is expected.

For so many years i've been glad how God had pull me through.

and well there you go... someone just blew it and what sucks is when you know that you had allowed it. Either way.. what goes through my mind now is how much i just want to sit in his pressence.

You know like how it felt when you just run into your father's arms telling him everything you felt. and the silly mistakes you made every single day.. and he just takes u in the arm and tells u everything is alright. yeah~

Untitled

2010-10-15T08:41:00.002+08:00

It's 15th Oct 2010, Friday. Early in the morning.

*breaths in*

It's been almost 4 to 5 months since i last posted anything on my blogspace.

Over this period... there are so many things had happen.. the good stuff and the bad stuff..

I think about it today right now at this moment... there are just so many layers of... ups and downs. It's as if you get to watch this movie of your own life sobbing and laughing away.

My grandpa passed away about a month plus ago.. although he wasn't that close to me but the picture of him in the total white outfit never leave my memories. It's amazing how sometimes one death could bring people together and decide to do things that should have been done long time ago. However, either way... i'm just glad that now we all learnt to appreciate each other more.. choosing to spend more time together and understand each other.

You know... we go through the routines of life and for me... i hardly find myself doing anything without any music playing in the background. I don't know about you but i love music.. i love playing the latest songs that's on the radio.. latest songs we sing in church.. and it was funny as i set down at my desk the past few days... looking through my itunes playlist... i do not have a single idea of what i want to listen to... but only knew in my heart that... once again.. i've disappoint God. Making silly decisions. that makes no sense at all. I knew deep down in my heart that it's time... it's time to run to God and set things right. Every single time when i run back to him... i saw the weakness of myself.. the dark side which we choose to ignore or escape from.

It's not the best time in my life, in fact it might just be the worse and lowest valley of my life. Never once did i felt so upset with myself.. Never once did i felt i've done something so bad so bad that i couldn't pull myself together. So bad that it stinks.. but having said that.... after running for so long... I guess it's because of our imperfection that make God loves us more each day. He could have turn his back on us but his grace and love embraces our imperfection.

"I guess.. Our Imperfection is what made God loves us more..."

Dreams

2010-05-31T01:32:00.001+08:00

It's 12:37am, Monday morning.
Amazing... never would have dream that of all places to blog about my life, i will be blogging in the hospital. with my sis sleeping by my side.

*takes a deep breath*
Where should I start.
Recently i've been reflecting alot. Maybe because i had been having too much time waiting and i started to think about the different things that is going on right now in my life.

I think about work.. family... life and dreams.
I often question myself ever since i quit my previous company.. If the choice that i made today was right.
I remember i blogged about how simple people live when i met different ones in Australia. Running after their passion to feed the poor. I started looking forward to that kinda life as i quit my job. Of cause, different company has different imperfection. Although i'm still happy with my current job, it will not change the fact that many times as i set infront of my desk looking into my computer and wonder if life could have been different if i were to continue with my previous job or landing myself in another company. How would life be if i'm running production right now. Filming stories, having an entitlement of some credits that runs after the programme. I wonder many times how it would have been. Often times i had to stopped myself from thinking about it but only to be reminded about the purpose of me coming to my current job.

Family. One of the major reason of landing in the current job was to have more time with my family. Knowing that my industry is an industry that never sleeps i reckon that with my current job it would allow me to spend more time at home and indeed i had. I looked at my sister now, knowing how much pain she had to go through. Like any mothers or sisters, we wish we could ease out the pain for her. if there is anything we could do to make her feel better i'm willing. I see the face of rest on her face makes me appreciates having her by my side. I'm really tired but right now, i just wants her to be by my side. Walking through her every single pain, joy, sorrow.. whatever it is.. I want her to know that i'm always by her side cheering her up for her. Though i missed the days we had before but today i'm reminded of the good that is still ahead.

He’ll wipe every tear from our eyes
And make everything new just like He promised
Wait and see
Just wait and see
Wait and see

We'll taste and see that the Lord is good
The Lord is good
The Lord is good

- "See" Steven curtis chapman

The Sister that i'm so proud of.

2010-05-17T21:57:00.002+08:00

It is 10:13pm, 17th May.
I'm sitting on the bed blogging about the beginning journey of my week.
It's seem that with the previous blogs i've learn to understand and talk about my family more
often then i realized.

Anyhow. Ever since yesterday i guess my days were pretty surreal i would say.
Things that i thought i would only encounter in TV has become reality in my life.
Remembering how i always grew up with my 10 years younger sister, I use to hate being around her when i was young. I didn't like so many things about how things were.
But as you grow older you realized it's a responsibility when the young ones looks up to you as a role model.
I begin to observe how much my sister model after me.
Things i do, things i say, how i look at things she never fails to ask me about her school homework.
Although many times i do feel bad sweeping her away but i guess when you are older you realized the need in their lives.

The past few months have been very challenging.
Knowing that today is the day that she will be going for her major operation. I find all ways to communicate with her and to calm her down to know that this is the one thing she had to go through and we have to go through knowing that it is for the better for the future.
I joked with her yesterday morning. Many offer their prayers to her. I prepare her stuff with her and stayed through the night with her. I knew she is prepared for this but i can never understand the fear that is going through in her heart that she hardly shows. I stayed up late looking at her and just praying that God will be with her and let her rest in the process. Asked him for his peace to fill up her heart.

Morning came and this is the moment when her biggest challenge comes. She cried silently to herself as she is being rowed into the operating recept. Mum and I waited the whole day and to find ourselves receiving the news that everything went really well. At that moment, i couldn't ask anything more but to praise God for him making everything well. I'm so proud of my little sister. I use to fear how she would run away from all the needles but no she stood firm and gave her best shot through the process. She didn't cry from the needles but she went with confidence. Although now she is in the ICU after an asthma attack right after the operation, i looked at her today knowing she had overcome so much. She did not just go for an operation that will give her confidence in her body but she had gone for an operation that have gain her confidence in her character. And I know God had mold her during the whole process of this operation.

I looked at her today, knowing that she had made me proud of what she had gone through.
What more should worry or to ask but only to also give my best shot to be there for her, encourage her and walk through this journey with her.

She do not need to know how much she had suffered, because she knew it all along.
But what she needs is the encouragement that only I can give.

Zoe. Small as you are, you have faith and confidence like a mountain.
I'm so Proud of you buddy and I will stand by your side in every walk of your life.

You did it buddy. :)

You will be heal in Jesus Name.

the mom that never sleeps

2010-03-31T01:16:00.002+08:00

It's 1:22am on a wednesday morning.

Sitting on my bed, I decided to blog about what happened in the past 2-3hours ago.

For the past few months it hasn't been easy at home.

Sometimes arguments breaks out of now where and bitter comments were thrown all around at home.

But today i've decided to blog about my mum.

I can never forget when i was younger how my mum would punish me for telling a lie, not doing my homework or sometimes being rude to people by not talking. I will get cane by her and in my mind i would hope for a saviour to save me from her punishments. (Which most of the time turns out to be my dad or my grandpa). And as i grew older my mum starts to tell me stories, the day that i was born... tears of joy filled her heart and my family's heart. She always say that she couldn't believe that she could give birth to a "giant" like me. And of cos when i was younger, she use to buy dresses for me to dress me up like a princess, going for ballet classes (i know it hard to believe). And soon you grow to be a teenager, when you just felt that everything about your mum is just about nagging after more nagging and more nagging. She complains of the number of hours i set in front of my computer playing games, bumming around. She seeks after a way that not every parents takes but to put everything of herself down and to take a step down to communicate with me. Till the day i step into my university when i started to make choices in chasing after my dreams. On the day of my graduation, she prepares herself wearing the first white dress i bought for her, that smile on her face knowing that she was and still is very proud of me. And now, when i started working she never fails to takes care of my health, making sure i have enough food and rest.

Of cos, what my mum did is way more then just these sentences of words.

Today, i had dinner with my mum just like any other day. But today i saw the other side of my mum that i know someday it will fade away. Ever since my helper went back, though my sister and I were given different task to take on but no matter how much we do it will never beats the amount of energy and strength my mum puts in to make this home a better home to live in. No matter how early we have to get to work or school she never fails to wakes up in the morning to drive us to that place, when the afternoon hits she rush off the house work and goes of to work, and when night falls she refuses to let us wash the dishes and clothes but to ask us to get more rest. We complain so much many times on the things we need to sacrifice but what more do we complain when we look at our mums with the afford the put in to make this a better home.

Seeing her with so much more things to do with so little time to rest i decided to help her but i got myself cut with a tin. She quickly runs over the house to get me a plaster. And at the end she just said go and sleep don't wake up late tomorrow.

I've no idea how your mums are but though many times i couldn't understand how she thinks but i'm forever grateful to have her by my side and i'll never exchange another mum for her.

I love you mum :)

it wasn't just good... it was.. awesome! thumbs up tink*

2010-02-06T00:16:00.002+08:00

It's a Saturday Early morning, 12:24am.

Today was a rather cold, warm, rainy weather day.

An eventful day for sure but a day to take time to see how things comes together.

It's the 2nd official day of work in my new job.

As of now, things are still going really slow where nothing is yet to be on my desk.

I take my time getting familiar with my new co-workers, with the area etc.

Of cause now working in a bigger corporation the distance that you need to walked around is so much bigger as compared to the one before.

I was being officially introduced to the whole office which took about 20mins?

It is quite an interesting moment but anyhow...

moving on in the afternoon i went for my basic theory test..

having not much confident before i was glad somehow i'm being forced to read up..

and today i'm very thankful that i've made it through the test.

Reading all the questions 2 times my heart beats really fast on the last question before tap on the screens that says end test.

I closed my eyes hoping to see if it's a passed or failed i tap on it...

One movie that could describe what i felt then was " The beat that my heart skip" was for that. Lol..

Well anyways, i made it and moving on to the next step..

Above all, what really made the day really awesome was when i took the lesson notes today and read on it again. Questioning God on how does this lesson relates with me.

And when i deliver the lesson to my net members, i realized...

The lesson is really very simple.

I took 15mins to just share the lesson with everyone..

It's about God's promises.

God.. the one and only friend whom never fail to fulfill his promises.

When he says it.. It will happen. He is not flicker minded.. He is not someone who changes his ideals every time he feels so.. He is faithful to his promises.

And so many things in the bible he promised yet many times, we forgotten to keep it close to our hearts. Because the way how the world got us to think how God is. We create this whole God image that is being influence by the world. And honestly many times we.. well at least me I doubt God on his promises.

He promise me that he will provide. He will heal.. but many times our attitude towards God was.. yeah yeah alright God... if you so happen to heal and provide... Great good for me... but if you don't.... erm... ok. Whatever.

It came to me that really.. it is that simple..

Principle here is... Promises are already there.. God is waiting.. ready to burst his blessing on us.. but we've forgotten to claim it. And when things doesn't work out we kinda just sweep it under our bed thinking.. ah it's ok.. God just.. well didn't come through.. ok.

Or or.. some of us.. sweep it under our beds yet we still praise God on our lips.. but in the heart... it's just another thing that happen and well things fail..

There are so many things that got in our way.. that we forgotten about the voice of God calling out to us screammming at the top of his voice telling us hey hello... it's here... why are you not redeeming it?

And at the end i thought to myself even right now as i'm typing this out.. I'm convince that i've not been placing myself in that position where i start living in his promises and start redeeming all my left over presents that is from God.

Like what Linus said:

It's not just good.. It IS Awesome!

I'm thankful for being reminded of his promises.

Amen! :)

Friends

2010-01-26T00:19:00.002+08:00

Monday, 12:27am. Rather windy now.

Today marks the first day of me being "jobless".

Getting my day planned, I met up with weiling at ikea.

While waiting for her, my ex colleagues called me..

Wondering if i'm enjoying my life now lying on the bed snoring away

or have i got my butts up to see what else i have for the coming future road...

Well.. I'm not too sure how noisy or maybe quiet the office had been..

Unsure what was going on in everyone's mind while they first stepped into the office.

Has my presence left the office with a sudden unfamiliar tone..

No longer jazzy music appears early in the morning..

No longer hearing the crappy-ness i left...

On the other side of the island..

A sudden unfamiliar way of living hits me right in the morning.

Sleeping without anyone waking you up asking if there is work today.

Spending my afternoon out in ikea as if it's my holiday..

It's so unfamiliar to me with this way of living.

However, i'm glad... and thankful..

for that one call my friends made to just check out on me...

Knowing the battle is gonna be tougher they supported my choice..

I was.. digging out the dvds i had...

with all my previous projects...

and I came acrossed this 2 huge cards..

Somehow.. i was touched..

These 2 cards were written last year.

it amazed me in this 1 year.. How much i've changed..

Busy-ness washes off the foundations for friendship.

The importance of making that extra effort to look out for each other.

2009 hasn't been easy..

I've figured friends whom had been so close to me before...

i've not make time...

to check on them.

and when I looked at those 2 cards...

it reminded me of the tough times we had gone through.

the words were simple..

but it means so much.

The last lap

2010-01-21T23:32:00.002+08:00

Well.. Yet another day had gone by.

It's 11:43pm on a Thur night.

With my television on.. watching American Next Top Model

I'm sitting here blogging about what is new in my life.

It was indeed quite an emotional day deep inside of me.

Reason being the fact that finally.. the day has come.. The final Lap that i'm running is finally reaching.

Tomorrow.. is my last day with my company.

Well it's kinda mix feeling going on within me though my day.

I guess it's the relationships and bonding that you build every single day with these guys that makes my day emotional.

This day come so fast since the year starts..

It was so fast... that i couldn't even believe that it's tomorrow.

I thought to myself.. What's gonna happen on sunday evening?

Right after service how am i gonna react?

Monday morning.. what am i gonna do?

Suddenly all these things that i'm so familiar with.. suddenly it will be not needed...

I don't know..

It was extremely tough to leave my colleague today..

I guess the battle we fight every single day at work is what gets me missing every single min as i leave this familiar place.

Guys, Rock on! You can do it. :)

Love,

Yvonne

My Hope.

2010-01-10T23:24:00.002+08:00

Once again it's a sunday night, 11:28pm.

It's the first blog i'm going to write for 2010.

You know it's sometimes amazing how each year passes by so quickly and you just don't realize it till the year end comes and you starts to reflect on the things over the year.

But anyhow, it's 10th Jan 2010..

I guess for the first week of the year, it went pretty slow..

and it's actually quite suckish on the first week you got to reflect and you get really upset... with many things that is being brought forward from 2009.

But, Still I want to thank God for pulling me through the year. And i thank God for that 1 bus ride i decided to take after work to clear my thoughts with him.

Although it was a really long ride but sometimes you do need these ride to think through things. In any case, I wanted to thank him for pushing me right to the corner to just turn my eyes on him once again. Telling me or rather reminding me about how our walk with him can't be base on how we feel.. what we are thinking but it has to be that foundation we know..

In the coming year, so much challenges ahead of me for 2010 and I'm entrusting the Lord to make things work out somehow.

Today had been such a great day. Again it is amazing in that 12hours you spend out you've gain so much.

I guess at the end of the day I can only say... Lord show me the plans you have for me. Take my every step walk with me... and lead me.. :)

A start of a new beginning.

2009-12-24T22:33:00.002+08:00

A start of a new beginning.

24th Dec 2009. It's 10:43pm i'm sitting infront of my computer.

Today marks my first day of the very long break that i've been looking forward to since don't know when.

It's been a really busy busy busy months that had just passed by.

Everyday seems like a process day by day.

Although each day different challenges comes,

but the thought of waking up at 7:30am, leaves the house at 8:30am then get to office by 10am having lunch at 1plus and finish up work by sometimes midnight sometimes on time just gets you isolated in the thought that you are not in contact with everyone else.

So anyhow! Hitting on a punch line, i realized my days in my current company are really numbered. Memories of each person i've worked with in the company i can't really quite imagine how it would be like leaving a place i've stayed on day and night for the past 1 year and 2 months. Of cause, leaving a team that have been so supportive through every single project is one of the hardest thing i have to deal with i guess. Through tears and joy, day and night we've been through every single mountain.

*Takes in a deep breath*

Oh wells~ It's at start of a new beginning.

I'm seeing my future ahead of me. And i'm running after it.

Lord I trust in you. :)

The blister finger

2009-11-01T21:59:00.001+08:00

It's a Tues morning, 12:25am.

Well it's rather "early"in the morning.

Well... i was suppose to blog on this yesterday night but lol well i felt asleep even before i typed the first word.

Back to the point, i was actually just looking at my fingers and as i saw this blister that i got after playing the bass on sunday morning.

Thinking back i've realized how far i came... with the bass..

Remembering how i wasn't really interested at the beginning..

and to the day where the cha cha band was formed..

then to the time where i got scolding from Amos...

till today laying with the regional band.

I'm glad and amazed how God had changed my heart

and attitude towards things in life with the bass.. (never say die spirit).

and of cause with the people i'm surrounded with. Never fails to scold me with love, and encourage me when i'm discouraged.

Thankful that's all i can say. :)

can anyone hear it?

2009-10-09T21:39:00.003+08:00

it's 9:40pm in Singapore...
and it's 11:40pm here in Brisbane...
Once again i'm sitting infront of the laptop.
going through the thoughts that came by...
sitting on my bed in this mini room in the hostel..
a guy strumming the guitar singing to himself at the cooridoor...
I thought to myself...
Lord...
why? why things has to turn out the way it is...

it's been awhile since i took time to gather my thoughts on my future.
Over this trip, i figured
in the most simple way, people are just passionate on what they do.. Knowing that every single day they had a purpose.. and they knew they are called to do this at this time at this place...
I question myself, what do I want?
I'm not well very happy with the way i am now i think...
walking day by day just for the sake of doing what i'm suppose to...

over the trip i remembered how i always wanted to make it big somehow some day..
i remember how when i tell myself...
Look Yvonne here is it... u gonna be a great director... producer maybe... art director...
but over this trip, what i saw was just a pure passion... a pure calling in each person i met..
I wonder to myself, this is the kinda life, i wanna live.. but can i affort it is the question.

I spoke to mum... gotten her support to pursue what's right for my life, however the saddness of life came when the exteral parties saw the plans i had in my mind was a road of more suffering to the people around me.

No one was really ever supportive besides my mum in the things i pursue...
They think in the most realistic way that many times i guess that's what make working a pain.
Anyhow, it hurts most when you figured the people whom you look up to sometimes comes back with a thinking that you had not grow up to think for others not knowing what actually goes through my thoughts.

I can cry over this all over again...
but i guess whatever it is...
I know what i'm doing...
not living a life that is unplanned..
not living a life that pleases everyone...
but desire to live a life of passion and great purpose.

It's time

2009-09-27T22:41:00.002+08:00

It's 10:55pm on a sunny sunday.. :)

Waking up early this morning not knowing what's installed through the day...

Expecting things will run as usual like any other sunday.

But as the day comes to an end before i head to my bed and rest...

I reflect on what's different today.

Indeed, it's such a special day..

it somehow just felt awesome every single moment...

Like any sunday, i get up at 7:45am... showered and heads out to church..

I pick up the bass and start plugging it in and start playing the songs as the service starts.

Msg was interesting.. very different but it was good.

then came ministry meeting where everything changes.

Again it wasn't like any other rehearsal meeting, today was really to reflect the foundations of our worship.

We did not have practice sessions, but what Jidi shared was really... amazing and i believe it is from God. Even Esther's worship was great.

Never do i want to just provide shades to those who walks into church..

I want to produce fruits that brings life... the worship that comes out should be like a river of living water that when one walks into church feeling warm.. dry.. thirsty can too be refresh and it last for a long way...

You know at some point, it is amazing how God impresses your heart on the things that is coming.

I remember this week had been such an intense week. Everything just came slapping on my face. It's as if you couldn't even get a chance to take a break from the slapping that comes.

IT'S UNCONTROLLABLE!!!

at one point i'm screaming in my heart and mind saying "ENOUGH!! OK OK.. I SUCK!! STOP IT!"

But it is amazing that in the mist of all the slapping moments, God prepared my heart of what i'm about to hear.

I knew that i was almost in a desperate moment of just needing a break from everything.

and just to really take time away to spend time with God. And i mean really getting away from all form of communication that could ever exist.

I missed the time when i had so much faith in what God had promised me.

I missed the time when i was always able to just praise God in almost every single thing. (lol praise God.)

And more importantly I think i missed the time when i really understood the purpose of why things happen the way it is. Of cos, not to say that i don't understand it now but it's as if the mask of busy-ness came in along the way and i just live with it. Week after week.

Anyhow, back to the key point. I was amazed that during this week i started to have thoughts like.. Hey maybe i should make a habit of catching a movie once a month? picking up classes? Go out and do some drawing.. something that you can just enjoy.. and spend sometime with your friends or alone. and i guess i've figured that spending time alone outside can be good. Although it might be alittle weird.. because you suddenly feel so empty around you.. It's as if you didn't bring your bag out on a normal day. These thoughts came to me as a random thoughts but today it was like a confirmation of these activities are what God wants me to do.

Therefore, with these yeah i guess.. it's time for me to hit myself with a treat. :)

*Twist*

One of those day

2009-09-23T00:12:00.003+08:00

It's 12:13am on a Wednesday morning..

Sitting in my desk area waiting for things to be done i reflect once again upon what happen today.

Taking in a deep breath, i thought to myself that today is just one of those days that you cry not because you are happy.. not because someone had hurt you but the fact that you get so angry that you didn't know what to do but to cry over it..

It started off with a really blue morning when you just figured that today will just going to be another working day with exciting stuff installed. Till it hits the evening, things changes. It's as if the world had been turned up side down.

I thought that with my commitment, the number of hours i didn't mind to give up on.. the number of sleepless nights.. the money i spend... the many weekends that i could have gone out to shop or rest at home was enough to meet the expectations.. but it seems that though with these commitment i gave all i get was a remark of just 75% effort coming from me.

Sometime i wonder, what really is 100% then. I don't know. I'm left speechless this evening but to just ask myself haven't i done enough? Perhaps it's time to move on? or maybe

i'm just not good enough..

The one mistake was to assume even though you trusted. Therefore, i've decided to prob stay silent.

2:11am

2009-09-05T02:09:00.002+08:00

Yet another Friday night/Saturday Morning.

Like any other Friday nights, i burn it off with all the editing work that is yet to be done.

But today was alittle different, i was able to finish early but was held back by some stuff.

Anyhow, life have been on a rather down slop.

Many challenges that i'm seeing is getting nearer and nearer to me each day.

Sitting around my working area back home, i felt the wind blowing towards me and i figured that it's raining.

For some reason i was planning to get to my bed and sleep off my night but i was held back to blog and guess what? i've no idea what do i wanna blog either. Lol!

Staring blank on the desktop screen, the only thing that could cross my mind now is God.

How i fail so many times in submitting towards what he had planned or ask of me. I can't help but to just fall back and think about his grace and mercy upon my life.

It is so true that one should live life like there is no tomorrow because who would knows what might happen to them the very next breath that they are taking in.

A breath of life and death is as simple and easy as a few mins or sometimes even by sec.

Today we might be standing shouting at the top of our lungs of how healthy we are and the next moment we might be gone.

Life is so unpredictable.

But above all, he is in control of our lives.

A time for a certain purpose for a certain reason.

All we've got to do is to wait upon him for his promises to fulfill in our lives.

Believe in Faith with Actions.

That's what i want to strive to do.

Yehweh. Yehweh.

The songs that teared my heart

2009-08-13T22:52:00.000+08:00

Something is wrong with the blog skin.. Lol anyways.. yeah it's been awhile ever since i last blog. Like many and any working adults you kinda lose the energy that you use to have.. Once you are home most of the time you just wanna check some mails and head back to the bed. But today i've decided that i should just update my blog with the thoughts that have been going through today.

It's like any other usual day that we pass by, and like any other day i get off my mum's car and head up to the train station. Taking the usual steps, when i reached the platform, i walked towards the last cabin then i took a look at the huge clock. The clock says it's 9am and I thought to myself yup the train will be reaching in a min. Soon the train arrived, like any other usual day i stepped into the train finding the corner seat to myself. I popped my ipod and let it figure what it should be playing till i reached Kallang and off to work. As the day planned ahead, filled with so many things to do, ordering of equipments, getting the logistics done, emailing, checking more emails and suddenly i was hit by the song Healer. Right at my desk, i teared over it. The same anointing fallen right where i was at. I was reminded of so many things. I remember how i didn't like this song before until i hear the lyrics out. I didn't know how to even express how thankful i am. Thankful of the many time my failure doesn't stop him from healing my wounded soul. Then i watched the dvd i borrowed, "This is Our God". Indeed the songs speaks of every character God is about. In Healer, Joel H spoke about his conversation with Mike. G. Yeah everyone knows that all these was like a show put up to boost up our faith in Christ but when i listen to the many different ones sang this song, God's anointing was in that place, God's anointing was with that man who wrote this song. and the same anointing was with everyone who listens it. Joel expresses his speech-lessness to how Mike describes about the worse situation that he could be in.. He said "how long? How long more? yet.. there is again the faith in him that... is.. speechless.." Mike says, that this anointing that was there shouldn't just be where it is.. It should be with whoever that sings this song. Today, i walked home Singing this song aloud in my heart and while walking home i cry out to God.

The Dessert Song, like Healer, i didn't like it before until i saw the faith in that song, i saw the hope that's in this song. Like any usual day, after work, i board the train and i waited for a seat. As i sat down, i took out the laptop wanting to do some edits or perhaps catch some video entertainments. I clicked on my edits and realized it's all in my hard disk so i continued to watch the interview in This is Our God. Jill.M sang this song. This song says, "All of my life, In every season You are still God, I have a reason to sing, a reason to worship and I will bring praise, no weapon forged against me shall remain.." and this is the part that goes all out with faith and courage and that's to rejoice and declare that God is my victory and He is Here." I couldn't help it but to be reminded the time i was down in the lowest valley of my life, i wanted to leave everything aside and just move on with life like how i want it to be. But he took me back. I was reminded in the lowest time of my life, when things come against me, everyday was a battle to walk home, fearing that i'll be alone in my room, fearing the problems that i've to face when i'm home, I cry out to God and he gave me faith to trust in him that he is always with me. I was reminded the time when i couldn't bring myself to lift up my hands to just worship him, and he gave me the courage to lift up my hands once again on stage to just sing to him. I can never forget the time when i'm singing to him and he smiles back at me, i can never forget the every season of my life. He was there for me and the sense of joy in me couldn't be held within me anymore that i just go all out rejoicing knowing that he is the very reason why i'm singing why i'm worshipping..

Lord!!! I Love You!!

You are worth it!

2009-06-20T23:43:00.003+08:00

Oh man.. I've been wanting to blog since about an hour ago but i've fail to do so. Lol so anyhow, Yes! I'm gonna just blog alittle anyways.

Today have been a rather easy going day. It starts off with a photo shoot on a corporate video that i've been doing for almost a year. (of cause right now i do have a full time job) but anyhow, how great can a photo shoot start off when i found out half way through the journey i figured that i've forgotten to bring my Compact Flash Card. Deep inside of me i started to slap on my forehead.. thinking to myself..

" Yvonne! How can you assume???? Didn't you figure that the word that was writed on the screen was -E- meaning empty? Why why why didn't you bother to upload the photos earlier on the card then you might have figured this out?? WHY!!"

Well you must have thought what's the big deal.. Point here is.. Never assume! That's almost like the motto of my company. the time when you assume things too much is when problems are coming your way. Oh wells i thought to myself let's try to figure a fastest way to borrow a CF card go buy it go home get it borrow it from friends whatever it is! JUST GET IT! so well when we reached the location, we figured that it's like a ulu place that no cab passes by and i told the uncle i need to get out of this place to get something.. Obviously he wasn't happy for whatever reason, he was making noise when i'm paying HIM to drive me out. I rushed to Harvey Norman. I was expecting the card to be at least 50bucks but guess what? I've figured that Harvey Norman only sells 2GB CF card. and i'm like oh crap! it's gonna be get ex. but! THANK GOD! the guy was like it's 19bucks! I'M LIKE THANK GOD FOR PC SHOWS or whatever shows you have there. I bought it and rushed back to location. It took me about 15mins i guess.. so well that's pretty much how my day started.

Moving on.. after the shoot i had some time before heading for edge so i took some time to hang out at the starbucks at NorthPoint. Nice place and well i started to continue my script (it seems never ending writting for my script lol) and yeah i'm glad i've got it moved on in a way. SO anyhow, i head off for edge. See.. i've been hearing how subjective how we humans can be. That sometimes we only listens to our logical side of mind and totally ignore or forgotten how God can works the so many ways. People asked me oh you mean you are still in the Youth ministry? Not expired yet? i mean seriously guys.. what do you mean by not expired yet? You mean u do get expired in God's kingdom? Or how about this... sorry i don't feel ministed anymore. You know youth ministry... nah the issue that i'm facing is Wayyy too much as compared to those who are still in school. You see, i've figured that first of all God works in the most amazing way as long as you choose to submit to him. SUre there are cases when people moved on to another ministry cos they have a burden to that ministry or maybe God has called them to somewhere else to bless the others. But putting this aside, i've figured that sometimes, in the most simple way.. in the most basic way.. is what ministers to us (whom supposingly more matured in the Lord) most! I can say this out loud because God have been so real in my life and believe it or not although i'm 22 this year, i get ministed most when it comes to the most basic way of living.

Today during worship, i couldn't help it but to take myself one step backwards and start to realized how amazing God is. John 3:16 says For God so love the world that he have his only son.. It's so simple.. yet so many times we get so familar with this whole verse and it's almost like just brushing off our teeth and we don't realized it. i mean HEY! For God so Love the world. Jeremy emphsize on that listen to the first 4 words.. For God SO LOVE.. and he loves us more then anything else. no matter how fat, slim tall short if we have a weird mole on our body or we have weird eye brown it doesn't matter to him! cos he just loves us the way we are. and guess what? that's all that matters... we may be facing a huge problem in our lives.. but guess what? it doesn't matter cos God loves us.. and if God loves us so much that he is even willing to send his son to died for our sins and our pain.. he will come walk us through.. as i took a step back again and i think to myself, wow.. i'm worth it.. you are worth it. Jesus had died on the cross not just for display.. not for him to have like some kinda credit.. (i mean seriously if it's just for credit i think that's the stupidest reason why he would die for us that way.) but he died so that you and i can stand before God. I don't deserve this i thought to myself i don't. But i know Jesus had redeemed me and he wants me to know that you and i are not some kinda left over food that he found pity on that's why he takes us in.. we are so like his treasure.. and he is saying to us..

"You are worth it my child.
My child,
You are worth it"

Oh wells.

2009-06-13T02:34:00.002+08:00

It's 2:36am in the morning, its rainning quite heavily and i'm well as usual sitting in front of the computer. Somehow, this becomes a lifestyle for me every friday night, getting online, editing the video announcements waiting for it to render.. sleeps really late at night and waking up really early in the morning. And for some reason i've just decided to blog since it's been awhile that i've blog.

Hmm.. i really like the cool air that is enterning my room..

Anyways, Well it's been quite a week. A fast yet long one. I think that's how it is when production dates starts. In the first episode we film in the temple, mosque and church. All these buildings are modern religious building,anyhow i won't get into that too much. For the past one month, i think one of my greatest fear hits me right at this point of time. Taking up responsibilities, taking control of things. I've to say this isn't easy. On one side of my mind it has to be about production (all the emailing.. etc etc) while on the other, i've to make sure the announcements are done.. and on the other other hand.. i've got to be sure that net is running. Man i've to say.. it's just Maddness. Multi Tasking.. ain't kidding.

oh man... i'm so lost in my thoughts now.. i'm just ..... not responding to anything now lol..
Anyways, i guess this is it.. i'm gonna head to bed and hopefully i wakes up at 7plus.

Goodnight.

All things works with God

2009-05-18T23:38:00.002+08:00

I'm counting on.. i'm counting on God..
you are counting on.. you are counting on God!

Lol.
oK classic.

Anyways!

Wa-la people.
*takes a deeeeeeeeeep breath*
well..
today had been a rather....
hmm how should i put it. a bad day? yet a good day?

haha ok i'll explain.
First of all i would like to thank God
for the messages that was preached yest.
both morning and evening.
i guess my day had been started in a rather bad and fearful way.

Remembering yest evening
sis pam seaward preached about
the things we watched, we keep does brings in the wrong pressence.
well being a media person.
i always have the habit to on the Tv while doing my stuff.
at the same time randomly i'll just take a short peek.
so what happen yest was
that my sister was watching the S Factor and i was doing my work.
after which her show the tv was left on.
So there was this zombie show that came next.
and guess what?
yes! Zombies show are bad.
in that scene they basically inject some stuff into this lady.
afterwhich, they bring her to the top level and throw her down the building.
I took a peek and shuts.
i had a night mare that night.

I dream that someone who is really close to me was being thrown down the building
and i was in fear.. and i started singing amazing grace..
and she came alive.. and that's where i woke up.

I might actually seems funny at this point of time but i woke up in fear.
to think that this is bad.
it's not over yet!
the very next moment..
my mum started to tell me some negative stuff.
that's it my day was ruin!
my whole day was just filled with fear.. and tears..
till a point that it feels as if it's eating me up.
I went into the toilet and i started praying..
honestly i went crazy praying about this..
i was reminded about what was preached yest.
Sis Pam said claim what belongs to you. Claim it back
and Bro Danny said Stop listening to yourself. and Start talking to yourself
so i started to pray.. and i said this..

"Devil no you are not going to rob my days away with fear..
but God should be over my life..
God didn't bring fear in to my life you did!
So pls...
shut up and get lost before my God comes after you."

And well i felt much better..

But coming back on the counting on God part.
It's been a really tough period in my life.
i guess over the couple of years things sometimes just doesn't seems to be going anywhere.
instead it seems to be getting bad.

and
to honestly feel the pain of hearing things about someone who is very much
close to me is going through emotionally it... does hurts me.
She is someone quiet.
someone who doesn't speak much
when she has a problem she doesn't tells
i knew that something has to be done.
and that's what i did today.
She is important to me and she had been a great great person.

one thing i learn today and it's something that is very true
no matter how bad tings seems,
how can things be so bad that we can't even smile when God is in the picture.

God came to bring hope and a future.
how can life be so bad?
isn't God about hope.
about life?

once again..
I'm Counting on God again!
:)

We are helpless

2009-05-10T01:11:00.003+08:00

We are Helpless.

Today have been a rather normal day

i guess that's how i may put it.

i had a hair cut

and soon head down toward tpy to finish up the edits.

but in the meant time

i think in the so many ways,

God had reminded me about how sometimes

how helpless we can be.

and just having a thought about it.

it is very true that in life, we are always helpless.

though at times we are confident in what we do and how we plan our lives ahead,

but honestly to me with out God in the picture

many times i just felt so helpless.

You may read this without a belief in any religion, or maybe you do.

it doesn't matter.

because with so much things that had happen in my life,

i knew if i didn't have this God that i serve and the people he send around me.

Honestly i can't tell u in confidience that

Jesus is honestly the only way.

He taught me how to trust in him, when i was in the lowest vally.

He taught me how to remember how great he is, when i start to make my problems bigger then him.

He taught me how to love people whom i didn't wana love.

more importantly,

this week he reminded me that to worship him is not to bring a complete band to him

but just simply bring my heart to him that's all he ask. and matter of fact, he deserves it.

He deserves our praise, it's not a choice.

I remember the many time i walked up the stage on duty,

feeling stress up about the many things.

like how i might not catch the beat on the bass.

flow with the worship leader.

making boo boos.

but i thank God, that this week he reminded me about the simplicity of just offering

and submitting to him and trust that he can do great then what i know.

really, with this if we take God out of the picture,

we really don't have anyone to count on.

but when God is in the picture, i knew i can count on him.

and that's why,

till today.

I'm still get very much ministered by the song counting on God.

It mean alot.

and it is true that i always know that no matter what happen.

all that matters is God in what i do.

and i have to count on him together while doing it.

Lord, i'm counting on you tmr!

There is a Purpose.

2009-05-09T02:42:00.004+08:00

Purpose of Life.

" You are here for a purpose...

Because there is no duplication of you"

This was a quote i found while taking a bus ride back home.

when i saw that i thought.

Actually this is something i knew.

long time ago. but it is quite true that

honestly there isn't really quite a 2nd you.

and that's the reason why you are here.

haha.

It sounded so simple

yet many times we forgotten about it.

we got busy and we somehow just dump it at the trash bin that we have.

and maybe sometimes while packing up our stuff

then we remember about the purpose of our lives.

Oh wells..

Today had been a rather eventful day.

forgetting a shoe bag of dvds, i left it in the train.

thank God i found it back.

and to my surprise God allowed this to happen

first to remind me that i need to becareful more on the minor things..

while on the other hand..

mei fang told me that she prayed to God

that he will show her a miracle.

and well..

that's why God did..

lol.

what a God i serve.

" When God promises something,

he will make sure it happens at the right time.

because he is not insecure of what he says.

he knew what he is talking about

and he is confident that he will be able to give that to you when he promises something.

Therefore, i believe, and i'm counting on him every single day

that what is given to me each day

is enough.

I'm glad. :) "

Speechless before God

2009-04-19T21:36:00.003+08:00

Speechless..

I guess this is the only word i can use to express what i felt through the week.

In the real side of my life..

Everything is so loud.

people comes and go.

some would sit down and have alittle chat.

some prob work with me and well we joke about almost anything under the sun.

well and maybe some who would just sit beside me thinking what's going on in my life.

and

as a matter of fact i think

as i go deeper

i realized..

i'm speechless

the speechless silence in my heart was kept within right after what i saw and heard on the

2nd night of Good News Singapore.

A different atmosphere sets in.

Somewhat a new spirit has filled my heart.

It's as if the air that i'm breathing.

the noise i'm listening everyday on the street is just different.

A sense of hope, joy and laughter

has filled many hearts.

I remember on the 2nd night feeling quite shity about so many things

that i was expecting of myself..

while i was getting "emo" about things a cheer came on the right side of my ear.

I was standing at a platform,

i looked up and started to search what's going on there...

and in the mist i saw a man stood up

he stood in the mist of the hearing impact people.

and everyone there was cheering

and i soon realized this man..

got healed.

He could not hear yet that night by faith,

he was healed.

The lame couldn't walked yet that night

by faith they walked.

Those who had cancer, those who can't breath, those who had back problems..

By faith!

they were healed.

As i left the stadium till today..

i'm still speechless about how Great this God i'm serving.

However, God didn't just showed me how great he is.

But today he showed my weakness.

Around me were sound laughters noise weird singing complains..

these are sounds that surrounds me everyday,

yet in the mist of those,

i didn't realized my weakness.

and that's to cry out to him.

I knew God desire me to laugh.

and be carefree before him.

and i've always thought that i'm fine.

Counting on God. sure!

I sure can do that.

But today,

he reveal to me

that i had not trusted him enough.

enough to throw up all my burdens to him.

I've been covering up

thinking that i had done what's needed.

Yet today God choose to tell me..

my child. come to me.

let papa take all the burden

you just need to be who you are.

as free as a child.

don't let this burden stops you from enjoying your childhood.

I'm big enough to handle your problem.

i couldn't help but to cry before him

where.. where on earth can i find a love like this.

my papa..

I'm silently speechless before him today.

and i'm still speechless of this great father i know.

Papa,

i love you.

Love

Your Daughter,

Yvonne

60 Earth Hour

2009-03-28T22:34:00.002+08:00

60 Earth Hour.

I saw this poster a couple of days back.

While waiting for a bus with Wei Ping and Mei Fang.

Only then that i understood the poster.

Lol.

look how blinded can we be when we dont observe

things that is around us.

Anyhow.

That's not the point.

Well for people who are not even aware what is 60 earth hour about.

It's a part that every household should play

in off-ing all their home lights etc etc

for an hour.

And well..

Today at the edge then i was reminded about it.

So well i was talking to Sammuel while we were

still in the bus towards boon lay.

and we just observe..

to see who are the inconsiderate ones.

Lol..

And it's just interesting..

to just looked around and you of cos

find some who are really obident..

almost the whole block is dark..

while you have some really singaporean type..

you find people inviting their friend over

to play video games.

at that hour.

Seriously..

people..

we all have a part to play.

You want everyone to die faster

That includes you by the way.

(just incase u think that everyone else will die only you).

pls go find a planet on your own.

Here you are complaining about how warm the weather is getting..

bad for this and that..

YET!

we are still doing things that harms the enviroment.

harm others..

Sighs...

Oh wells..

what can i say..

Who's fault?

2009-03-27T00:32:00.003+08:00

Oh well's

Today is like one of the movie screening day..

that we have at least once a week in the office.

and the purpose of each session

is to open up our minds

and allow us to think..

and to explain why is each works are good or bad.

and well, Today is Choon's (my direct boss) to show us a film.

basically the films he choose are always those

that will screw up your mind..

letting u see the other side of the world.

So anyhow, we watched Capturing the Friedmans.

Synopsis:

In the 80's, in the upper-middleclass district of Great Neck, the awarded Professor Arnold Friedman is arrested for possession of some magazines of child pornography. A further investigation of the police discloses that apparently Arnold and his eighteen years old son Jesse molested his young students during their private computer class. Their Jewish family tears apart with the situation and the sentences of Arnold and Jesse.

In the beginning when

Mei fang and Wei Ping was discussing about this film.

I actually didn't think much into the film.

I mean visually and creativily

I certainly think that it's a very engaging film..

Quite enjoyable to watch.. cos it just keeps you searching.

searching for the truth of this case...

almost like seriously guys.. who is speaking of the truth..

But as i took a step back and think..

deeper into the facts that was shown in this film..

I've to say it's horrifying..

Horrifying in a good way..

It is horrifying to know what we as human beings have turned into..

Good in the sense that these issue are no longer hidden..

and people are getting aware about such a problem..

Who to blame?

In the film itselves..

they interviewed many people..

people from the laws.. the judge.. police.. etc etc..

and we ask..

who to blame..

who is innocent..

who are the victims?

I reflected and i could only say everyone is a victim in this case..

Yes Arnold Friedman was the one who cause this problem to arise..

but till a certain extent i think he is also part of the victim..

cos of his broken background..

Imagine this..

failing to have an image of a proper family..

being the eldest in the family..

and worse thing of all..

being a victim in his upbring of getting the wrong idea of what sex is all about.

Sex is created by God.

It's something that needs to be treasure carefully.

and it is a blessing..

but in his life..

all he saw was a mum who just sleeps around with different man..

and it's sad.

it's sad.

cos. people are taking things so lightly.

we dont get serious..

so impatient.

and that's where broken family comes in.

Many of us don't realize that Sex and marriage comes together..

And what is most important of all in this 2 things

is commitment and trust...

and we don't realize this.

I mean seriously..

how long more do you wanna get yourself hurt cos of your unseriousness?

We are not dealing with just our own stinking heart and life..

it is also about someone elses' life.

How long more do you want scar your heart again?

we know very well when a scar is on your body..

it can not be taken away..

Just the other day.. i saw this tag line on the newspaper.

It says..

"You Can be a couselor to yourself"

When i saw that i'm like..

Seriously what the heck is going on in humans' mind.

Fact is we all have a dark side to ourselves.

and many times.. the enermies in our lives.. are not people whom we hate..

but the worse and strongest enermies in our lives is the one that is living inside of us..

No matter how much u wanna take it away from you..

truth is.. it wont happen..

Cos we are all humans..

we all fail..

we are inperfect people..

we make mistakes and

that's just the truth.

If you observe,

people who choose to cousel themselves..

they just don't communicate anymore.

and chances of them falling into depression

are so high and chances are also.. bitterness turns in.

Friends and human are design around you to learnt from..

to help each other..

and trust me..

everything in life works with a give and take situation.

Today i'm in trouble you listen..

while tmr u are troubled i listen..

that's just how it should be..

Oh wells...

I don't know about you..

But all i can say is..

Truth will set you free..

so Stop lying to yourself that u can handle it all by yourself.

I Just Want You~

2009-03-25T00:49:00.004+08:00

I Just Want You

Planetshakers

More than a nice melody,

More than the sweetest of word's,

This is love i have found,and with this love i am found.

I just want you jesus, i just want you my lord,

I just want you jeses, i just want you.

Never could i comprehend,

The love you so freely give,Never could i be with you,

But you love covers all of my sin.

I just want you jeses,I just want you my lord,

I just want you jesus i just want you.

There is no greater love than your's,

Nothing else could ever compair,

And even if i search all the world i will never find a love like your's god.

There is no greater love than your's,Nothing else could ever compair,

And even if i search all the world i will never find a love like your's.

I just want you jesus,I just want you my lord,

I just want you jesus,I just want you,

Jesus!

This song had touched my heart since the very first time I heard it..

The Great almighty God I serve, who is madly in love with me and you..

No greater love can i get then his..

with this love that he shown us.. is how we are found...

That really touches my heart..

I hope it blesses your heart while listening to it too..

-vonnie

Pictures.

2009-03-24T00:01:00.003+08:00

SHa~
It's been a rather reflective day...
I shall blog about that tmr..
But yes...
here's the pictures...
as promised people..
i'm like super sleepy now..
BUT I SHALL STILL UPLOAD IT..
lol...

Old School Mates!

Dinner with Elvin, Esther Foong Tan

and Rui Xiong @ JP

Lunched with Youth Mates @ Ichiban, JP~

Craziest bunch of friends you can ever have.

Dinner with Adults @ New York, New York. CCK

5 Tickets to the Singapore International Film Fest

Paid by Boss.. Woohuu~

Alrighty people...

Hope this is fine.. Will continue to blog tmr.. Night

Beautiful Saviour~

2009-03-22T22:38:00.003+08:00

Finally...

I've gotten my first album of christian cds since.........

...............................

let me think...

the last cd i've gotten was.........

oh no...

i can't even remember...

i guess it's around the..

Reflection period from planetshakers...

lol..

yes and finally today..

i lay my hands on these new cd...

titled "Beautiful Saviour Acoustic Series"

and i've just gone through the songs..

Such a great album...

Somewhat a different style..

and i like it..

Oh wells...

Ok just in case you guys bug me again..

yes i know i've to upload all the photos from my bday so called "7days celebrations" Lol

well my mini traveling acer lappy doesn't has a blue tooth device...

therefore, i've got to wait till tmr when i'm in the office then i can transfer it all to my thumbdrive.

*breaths in..*

It's monday again..

Yet another week awaits for me...

while i'm trying to figured what there is installed for me...

OK! PEOPLE!

more photos coming tmr k?

I promise..

22rd Birthday and I'm glad.

2009-03-15T22:58:00.007+08:00

Haaaa.....

Happy birthday to me...
Lol

This morning i spoke to my mum.. i said..
"Mum.. 22 years ago.. can you imagine......."
and my mum went like..
"You won't out yet lar!"

Lol..

I'm thankful..
Thankful for the many things that God has place in my life..
My family.. and friends....
I'm glad that God gave me a life..
A job...
A family to stay with..
A spiritual family to grow with.
And most importantly...
A bunch of crazy friends who are always there for me when i need them most...

I've actually already typed out a bunch of stuff already but for some reason i suddenly got so awake to say something else..
Anyhow..
Yeah..

Today is my 22rd birthday..
After years of planning and having massive birthday party..
I guess right now i just hits the age where i just couldn't be bothered to have massive birthday parties.. or rather like what Pam said.. The Grand Gathering..
Lol..
But anyhow, as the days draws by i've decided to just make things sweet and short..
Gathering with different groups to just have lunch or dinner..
and well..
again i've to say i'm so glad.. so glad that with my bunch of crazy friends..
Lol..

This bunch of friends who are:

.willing to get out of the church bus at bukit batok just so that me and rui xiong won't suspect of them giving us a surprise..

.crazy enough to buy me a huge balloon, tie it on my bag and making me take a bus with that balloon.

.willing to miss the lunch that church provides for this month just to have lunch with me at JP. (though today's lunch looks really good)

The fact that in every single important moments in your life, they are there to celebrate with you.. to lend u a shoulder when u needed one... to pray for you when u are needing... to sing with you when u are so ready and excited to praise God... to encourage you when you are at your lowest point of your life..

This taught me the purpose of God's design of having mankind to surround you. Cos God is improtant but God had design friends not for them to just be some display item around you but they are design to laugh and cry and most important to learn at times from each other.

Through these few days, i've grew to understand that in my life... I'm Glad that i'm never alone beside having God with me.. I have a bunch of friends to reach out to.. a bunch of friends to Grow with.. and A huge bunch of friends to be crazy for the craziest things that we could ever think of..

Guys, thanks for everything.. I've had a great time with you all indivisually..

1 Group:

Sec school friends-

Thanks for your beautiful Cake that you've design.. Though it was a really short dinner, but i did enjoy every single mins that we've spend together in school.. I'm glad to have you guys to be part of my life.. We've walk through rain and sunny days.. :)

2 Group:

Elvin and Esther Foong-tan

Hey thanks for the dinner.. and the surprise..............something..

Lol..

I'm GLAD!! to have you both as my leaders..

And always being there with me..

to Scream together with me...

laugh together with me..

and Pray together with me when things seems so wrong..

I've been blessed by you both..

*The group whom had appear out of no where and appear with surprises..

*HUGS to you all..*

I've never felt surprise ever.. (maybe i'm seriously sleepy that's why.. lol)

but really...

i'm moved and touched by everything that you guys had gave up on..

(esp jon for giving up his soccer match just to come to jp... and dot.. who have essays to rush yet you appear allll the way just to say happy birthday to me and of cos to rui xiong... to sarah and charis and everyone else.... all i can say is.. i'm so happy....)

Group 3:

Youth Group-

Guys..............

*breaths in*

YOU GUYS ROCKSSS!!

lol..

You know you guys are the bunch of people whom i've never failed to be entertained by you all..
Seriously...

From my grad day... making me sit on the huge elephant car.. driving it around the mall like a kid...

even the kids there were looking at me..

till today..

I Glad that i could celebrate every single important moments in my life with you guys...

*hugsssssss...*

Well that's for now..

I've another 2 more groups...

lol...

Well...

All in Alll..

I'm just so happy that this year's bday had been a really short and simple ones... yet meaningful..

Love you all guys...

-vonnie

MOVING TO A NEW HOME!!

2009-03-07T23:55:00.003+08:00

Yawns~~

Oops..

Don't get me wrong..

i'm yawning because today...

Yes Today had been suchhh a Long yet exciting day..

Why so?

Because My church mates and I had just Moved into our NEW HOME!!

JURONG WEST CAMPUS..

erm no..

JURONG WEST'S VICTORY FAMILY CENTER..

We've been there since afternoon about 1plus..

till only about an hour ago which is 11pm then i got home..

Well..

It's been really great being part of the whole thing.

You know like how exciting it is like when we get our new home...

or maybe our brand new room..

We started to pay attention to every space we had..

and how to make full use of every single thing that's there..

but i guess..

in my case there are much much more things that i rejoice about then just moving into a new home.

Having the fact that..

the new building is just about 3bus stops away from my house..

No worries of having to pay 7bucks to cab to church..

and what's best is...

GEH POH SHOPPING CENTRE HAS UPGRADED THEMSELVES!!

lol..

there are soooo many happening stalls there..

that they used to not have..

but anyhow,

point is..

we've been blessed with a home..

and today.. seeing how many people had turn up to be part of the whole thing just makes me feel really excited about almost everything about this building...

No matter if there are some who cleans the chair...

set up the music instruments..

cleaning up the floor..

toilets..

buying food and drinks...

fixing the sound and video cables..

everything..

it's really like a family doing their part in what they can...

it's tough.. it's challanging.. it's tiring..

but hey you know what?

It's all worth it!

Now that i'm home...

seriously i'm just so excited about tmr..

Speaking about home..

I've just realized the suprise that my sister have been holding me back from..

was a used TV have been passed on to me...

I was rather excited about it..

Until......

i saw this...

Lol..
The tv is disfigured...
black and white..
with dots all over..
Oh wells..
having one is better then not having one..
at least sound is alright..
so i guess that's all i need and that's all i have...

:)

The day before my Off day

2009-03-06T00:13:00.003+08:00

Well well...
Today have been a rather interesting day..
Tmr is the off day!!
Whoo huu!!

Lol.

Anyhow, today spended my day in office nothing much to do..
So well i went to worked on my script..
ok mainly to say i was slackying.. lol..

So well,
after work Wei ping needs to go pick up some the booklet for the up coming Singapore International Film fest..
So Mei fang and i Accompany Wei ping to find out where to get it..
Since she is from malaysia..
So anyhow we end up taking lots of pictures at the Esplanade...

After which we've decided to have Ben & Jerry's Ice cream after a long day...

Strawberry Cheesecake and Chunky Monkey Ice cream with Waffle Bowl. hehheh. :p

Yup...

So that's pretty much how my day is like.. and TMR MORE TO COME!! lol

Pictures of my past few days.

2009-02-25T23:12:00.003+08:00

I've sort of decided that i shall use pictures to tell you what happen the past few days... lol

Ok. Here's the deal.

Every monday,wed and friday

my company have this project

of doing a time laps video on the growth of a building.

so anyhow,

we normally start work at 8am if we have to download the pictures from the camera.

and obviously we go home 2 hours earlier then the usual office hour which is 5:30pm.

So on monday i went down to somerset to download the photos and well..

at the start of the day..

I've already started imagining..

this is how it's going to be like when i reached home.

.......

the SKY IS STILL BRIGHT!! lol

anyways i was on the phone with my friend and i stopped the phone call just to take this photo..

lol

Ok. The coming photo is a "cake" My workmate and i had prepare for Mei fang (also one of my workmate the inhouse editor) Well she didn't like cake and she have been eyeing on this shop's egg tart for a very long time..

so i got a candle and bought her this "cake' and while she is editing..

we jumpped into the room off the lights and sang her a birthday song. Lol

It was a really long belated one but well have better then nothing right...

Yup this is mei fang and she is very happy with her cake.

(cos she havent had her lunch. LOL)

After the huge celebration..

sigh i was asked to travel to the far away shopping mall Sim lim square

to buy 4 hard disk of 2tb. and erm this shot was quite an emo shot..

But i added colours.. so it's not that bad.

Phew...

That's my day of tues..

Alrighty.. sleepy... ciao.

My new Phone's camera

2009-02-21T23:46:00.003+08:00

Hmm..
well..
my new phone is prob about a week plus or so old..
well..

this new phone is called viewty..
it's from LG and it's very sensitive..
why?
because it's a touch screen phone..
u will hurt it if u touch it too hard...
errr...
ok lol!
Anyways...

Well one of it's feature of this phone is the camera..
i was doubting about this phone for quite some time..
cos i guess it's a change of feel..
i mean we are so use to feeling the buttons all around
and this is like totally flat..
so well... yup..
anyhow..
here are some videos that i've found on youtube..
and ALSO!
a test video that i've film during today's BBQ service..
enjoy yeah. :)

All these videos are taken on 120frames per sec that's why it create this effect.

This is what people with this phone loves to do with their mouth.. Lol

And finally the video i've taken..

Check out more videos on youtube.
:)

Hello.. what's the problem with you eh? lol

2009-02-19T23:02:00.004+08:00

takes in a deeeeeeeeep breath.
goodness..
you know what?
people who are still in school...
.......
pls do make full use of the time you have..
and appriciate everything you have now..
things like.. TIME!!!

ok anyways..
the reason why i said this was cos..
i'm now blogging with my eyes..... in a straight line..
lol.

anyhow~
yes.
blog...
well today was pretty much a fine day..
after 2 weeks..
today was the very first day that i got so busy
that time passes so fast...
as i've shared during care group..
you know.. i'm doing the toughest job in the office..
and that's to do nothing..
lol..
for the whole week..
i've been asking around what is there for me to do..
wht is there for me to do?
and i always end up not having anything to do again.. lol
and well..
today we had a weekly movie screening session..
it was a rather ....
speechless lol...
i mean well..
sometimes i just wonder why people wanna be bad..
ok let me explain..
it's like amoung the main stream stuff..
you just wanna be loud cos u wanna be outstanding..
there are always a bunch of people who just love to get that attention..
people who just love to... be against what's right in God's eyes..
i mean when it's wrong.. it's wrong..
no matter how shallow things are.. it's still wrong lar..

it's just like a lie is a lie..
there is no such thing as a right lie..

sigh...
ok i'm going abit off...
i'm blogging side ways liao..
got to get going..
lol..

blog more in the week end.. see ya

Today is the day to Rejoice

2009-02-17T23:23:00.003+08:00

Oh boy...
You know..
today have been a rather interesting day..
It didn't start off with a some sort a refreshing day..
having the fact that i wanted to wake up alittle earlier to make a point to jog..
i end up having a bad headache..
Thanks to late nights extra erm.. what you call..
extra things to entertain to..
and well i went back to sleep for another 15mins or so..

And soon by 8:30am i started setting off to work..
man.. through the journey..
sigh..
i was very upset..
with so many things..
my mind was just filled with so so so so so many things..
and worse of all they are all Neg stuff..
and i thought to myself..
"crap.. God what a way to start my day.. and i've not even started my day actually.."
so anyhow..
i got to work..
and i started to have this serious mood..
no jokes.. nothing..
everything has to be quiet..
*i guess maybe i might be trying to figure what is instored for me through today."

At this point,
i should think that i need to Thank God for again the smallest thing i whisper in my heart to him.
i remember laying out all the credit list for every eps that is going to screen in this season...
and i ALSO remember my boss telling me to shift all Assistant Producers' role to Production assistant..
which is really... not what i wanted..
though i think it's improtant to do all the SAI KANG before anything
but man i was telling God..

"God!! why ah? i thought i will be credit as a Assistant producer? isn't that what u promise?"

at this point u must be thinking... what's the deal..

i've to say.. IT'S A HUGE BIG BIG DEAL OK!!

cos this programme after all is funded by Channel Newsasia..

and for me to climb that far it mean alot of things will happen in tiime to come..

so anyhow...

today as my boss asked me to double comfirm the credit list for hiim to see on the both eps that i've worked on which is the cambodia and bali trip..

guess what?

God is so Good..

that he promoted me via my boss..

for me to be credit as Assistant Producer for both eps i worked on..

Man..

at that point i was seriously thanking God..

And well i'm glad i went for Caregroup too..

cos trust me.. we could forget everything..

forget about the things we've got to do..

forget about the things that was in our minds ...

but God doesn't..

he remembers every single thing about us..

and Today..

Pam question us..

"What do we do when temp hits us?"

and that was what i'm going through this morning..

neg thoughts comes my way..

what do i do?

it's easy for me to choose to live in the neg thoughts..

easy for me to just entertain those thoughts..

but we've got to choose..

choose to stay away from it and flee from it...

so all in all..

I'm very glad that God remembered everything single thing about me..

and he will pull me through as i continue to trust in him..

Do you trust him or yourself?

The world is not going to be the same

2009-02-16T22:57:00.003+08:00

*takes in a realllllyy deep breath*

13-year-old becomes a father

ACCORDING to a report in The Sun newspaper,

a 13-year-old boy has become a father in the United Kingdom.
When his 15-year-old girlfriend Chantelle Steadman gave birth to their daughter Maisie Roxanne, Alfie Patten was by her side.
'I didn't know what it would be like to be a dad. I will be good, though, and care for it.'
Alfie lives with his mother and admited to the newspaper that he didn't know the cost of a packet of nappies. 'I think it's a lot,' he said.

-The Straits Times

Speaking about love,

seriously how much do we know about.

Recently @ the edge we had been going through a series

of msg talking about Relationships aka what u call the BGR.

Some younger kids might have reacted like errr...

girlsss.. GROSS!!

boys... EWWWW..

the cost of confusion.

See i guess in the world we are living now today,

Love had become so confusing.

Love was created to be simple.. pure..

but we human made it weird.. unpure.. and more importantly confusing.

have a thought about it,

the very reason why we were even created or let's just say born

it's cos of love.

If you looking from a God point of View,

God loves us that's why he created the heaven and the earth for us to live in..

for us to learnt.. and explore...

and if you are not a christian then ok fine..

same, the reason why u and i was born

was the fact that our parents at some point of time

fell in love with each other and we were created in our mothers' womb.

and love was SUPPOSE to be that way.

But we've made love so complicated..

that even this 13 year boy

doesn't even understand a single thing.

and many times we end up getting ourselves hurt just like what Jeremy preached.

There is a cost to confusion.

and sometimes it's just so irritating

that when we jump from one guy/girl to another just because

we couldn't figure out what we want in love.

and at the end of the day..

we realize..

the heart are filled with holes..

that is hard to fix.

We are living in a confusing world.

where love no longer mean anything.

we could date someone for a few days

and decided to break off cos ..

he or she is just not the right person.

for some,

it had become an addiction

that we couldn't live without someone for us to lean on.

we can't live when i've no one to call dear.

and all these are just.. not right..

cos you've not found what you want..

and it's so true when jeremy says that..

you know what?

no matter how many bfs or gfs you jump to..

u won't feel complete..

cos the problem doesn't lies with those around you..

problem always lies with ourselves.

looking at this boy here..

is a results of confusion.

there will be a cost to it.

are you ready to pay for the cost of your confusion?

new new.

2009-02-08T22:58:00.002+08:00

hmmm..
honestly.. i've no idea why i changed..
my blog skin..
just got sick of the old skin..
and erm..
yeah i kinda anyhow match it..

lol.

erm..
hmmm..
oh wells..
it's been really awhile since i seriously..
blog about things..
well not like today i would..
but then..
lol..

today was the 3rd time when i was on the bass..
sort of excited at the beginning i guess..
and i mean..
i really love playing the bass.
it might seems like the boringest instruments of all..
but once u master the basic..
woooff..
there you go..
sliding here and there..
and soon u realize u will start walking the bass..
lol..

sigh..
ok..
lol....
no idea where is this heading to..
but well..
all in all..
Thank God for everything..
=)

Chinese new year

2009-01-26T21:43:00.002+08:00

oh right

what a way to spend my very first day of chinese new year.

my mum..

sister..

grandma.

and I spend our whole day

watching...

little nyiang er..

told ya..

TV drama shows are just evil.

they just rob your time like no body business..

anyhow..

aiyo.. i really dont know what to say eh..

lol..

ok speechless..

The Business that my Father in heaven is Running

2009-01-11T22:03:00.002+08:00

Phew~

what a day.

Waking up in the morning with a heavy mind.

(thanks to hk drama)

i slept quite late

and yeah

i was on duty this morning

therefore,

i've to wake up at like 8am

in order for me to get to cck in time

(if i cab.)

anyhow,

yeah

today for some reason

i was reminded about

the business that my father in heaven is running.

You know..

with all the down turns..

recession..

etc etc..

people losing jobs.

people having a bad time.

I'm sure most of us are being affected

some way or another.

but today Pastor Danny

preached about

the vision for 2009.

In the year 2008 it's been such a great year.

Seeing souls coming to know Christ.

above all seeing each and everyone playing a part

in almost everything.

that really encourages everyone each other alot.

but hey you know

though in the world business..

it's expected to be a tough and down time

but

hey people you know what?

There is a hope here..

and that's to just allow God made the decisions for you.

I mean you may think it's stupid..

it's lame to let some spirit to choose things for you

but hey you know what?

This God that i serves had create everything.

the house we live in.. the dress we are wearing..

the ipod we are listening to..

and mountains that is so beautiful..

and the sky that is also beautiful..

to get you a job is like..

small peanuts job to him.

God had been so faithful to me

and if he can do that for me.

I'm sure he can do it for you as long as you trust in him.

but anyhow.

point here is..

like what Pastor Danny said.

in this coming year..

we need to learn how to talk to ourselves more then listening to ourselves.

Why?

Because we as NORMAL human beings.

we always think of the negative side of things.

and God didn't come to bring us fear..

he didn't come to bring us worries.

he comes to carry our burdens..

he comes to guide us.

and more importantly to give us hope.

So,

why worry?

We can't keep dwelling in the things that is so neg

we need to set our targets of the things we wanna achieve in this year

and start working towards it.

We need to start claiming success in our work.

claiming success in our studies.

in our family.

Amen!

2009 is going to be a tough year.

But trust me!

It's going to be a powerful year

and a Great one too.

Pocky? Jorckey? Chocky? whatever.. God is good ;)

2009-01-11T00:27:00.004+08:00

Hey yo,
(*thinks*)

hAha.. hows everyone doing?

it's been awhile again

since i blog
well..

today have been a rather

cool and easy day.

For the past few nights i've been getting home late.

cos of all the tape dumping..

transfering..

etc etc

so yeah..

anyhow..

MONDAY OFF!!

WOOHOO..

lol..

so today...

I spend time with my mum

for breakfast

and well..

i was just walking through one section

and i was like..

woah...

check this out..

The orginal one

The bigger Pocky

This is the one you MUST see!

JOCKEY!! hahahaa..no idea where is it from.

Pocky made in Thailand.

and of cos the more HIGH class Pockys..

and of cos above that..

wha'ts really cool about today was that..

WE HIT 300 YOUTH

@ THE EDGE!!

Whoo!!

you know..

for a very long time..

i've never felt so happy.. really

about what God had done..

and you know what?

MORE TO COME!!

THE BEST IS YET TO COME!

OK time to sleep.. ciao

Welcome 2009!

2009-01-01T22:22:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR

EVERYONE!!

*breaths in*

Haaaa.....

Can you feel the new "fresh" or Fresh air of 2009?

wEll..

i spend my last night of 2008 at Sembawang..

at the Watchnite service..

AND ALSO..

moving on to my very first min of 2009 Also in Sembawang..

at the watchnite service.

lol.

ok.. no link.

eRM..

yeah anyhow..

yes we were overnighting at Yishun building.

and of cos we had our makan movie night..

well for me was more like makan video announcements night.

Lol.

But hey.

Though it's tough work

but i love this ministry..

Video Announcements Ministry

weekly videos. impact lives

HA!

ok whatever..

Erm..

yeah today as we were on our way back.

well i saw lots of sleepy head in the train..

everyone was like zzzzzzz.....

and obviously we also zzzz....

oh oh!

i totally forgotten about the night makan thing..

we went to new ton in the middle of like 2am..

and my table..

which consist of people like

(Dawn. M, Veronica, Joy, Colleen, Grace, Miss Excuse Me aka Bernise, charis and me)

*thinks.*

yeah i think that's all..

we ordered like

Satay, Or zian, carrot cake, Roti john, hum? and chicken wings.

Well..

i was alittle hungry

cos depressingly the food that was provided during watchnite service..

wasn't enough for everyone.

I went to the toilet and went down..

and sigh..

no more food left..

So i went to order this

XO ba chor mee..

sigh.

Thinking it's special...

i felt cheated at the end..

it was nothing special besides the soup which tasted weird.

it was 4bucks..

and it's totally NOT worth it.

ok..

Moving on..

After everything..

i took a bus back

while walking back home..

the surrounding seems so quiet..

suddenly

the quietness and calmness hits me.

I felt as if i was the only one in the area.

saw a few auntie here and there

but it isn't very much like

everymorning

where u see people playing music while

doing tai chi

it was rather quiet..

and i thought..

oooo.. something different for a start..

but anyhow..

ok..

yeah that's pretty much my day.

Will share more thoughts as i move on..

But hey people!

2009! A new year..

I'm trusting on God for things to change.

and well God..

show me whatever u have ba.

I'm Counting On You God!

*twist towards the sky*

Today is the day!

2008-12-22T11:26:00.002+08:00

Woohuu..

Finally..

today..

Today is the day..

that i'll be flying back..

in about 6hours time will be flying back to Singapore.

Goodness..

though i've to say this trip

has been a very good one.

Of cause with God's help.

and God's fav and Guidence.

I've opened up my eyes alittle more

to observe not just about cambodia.

Not just about work.,

But rather about the God i serve.

Lord.

It's has never been this good serving you through my life.

For some reason,

Your Love has capture me so much

that i dont wanna give up on you.

*Breaths in*

there is so much i've to share about how God has pulled me

through this whole period here

But hehehe shall share it only when i'm back.

During Net.

Etc etc..

But Above all.

God!

YOU ROCKS!!

*TWIST towards the sky*

All I need is You Lord, It's you Lord

2008-12-07T01:01:00.002+08:00

All I need is you

Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak
Won't let go

Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray
Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord

One more day and it's not the same
Your Spirit calls my heart to sing
Drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again
Where would my soul be without Your Son
Gave His life to save the earth
Rest in the thought that You're watching over me

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord

You hold the universe
You hold everyone on earth
You hold the universe
You hold
You hold

Man~

Today finally..

finally i got to mess and hang around the church

the WHOLE day.

Morning was there to edit and also

to meet charis to teach her some final cut editing stuff

(can't wait to explode whatever i know to her)

then after which went down to

cck to attend the session.

then after that..

Dawn dawn and me von von took a train

to Yishun for the edge.

Man seriously,

never felt this good.

ANYHOW!

Today's blogging session

is about how a new perspective of worship came about.

this morning i was jj drove me to toa payoh

while we were on the road she asked me how am i coping with work

etc etc.

and i just told her this

that.

honestly i'm quite desp.

desp for a glimps of his pressence.

even if it's just one drop i'm happy.

and knowing that the fact that i'm dyiing..

dying to sing songs of praise to him

i asked shirley if i could sing this sunday.

You know though everyone must be thinking..

"wah this might be the first time shirley encounter something like this..

someone actually ask for duties."

lol

but seriously when i think about it.

yeah. i realized.

Singing to him isn't about my voice.

isn't about how i present myself

and it isn't even about blessing someone.

but this time round.

worship is about my need.

my want.

i learnt to apprieciate singing to him so so so much more.

till a point of requesting.

(of cos God live up to his words.

Ask and it shall be given and yes i'm singing tmr morning.)

So anyhow.

my day went on.

and

the song u saw up there.

"All i need is you"

this song has always been one of my favour songs.

one of the top 10 list that has never ever dropped since i first heard it.

And today we sang it.

my tears felt from my eyes

how true can this words be.

esp the one part it says.

Got every reason to be here again

Father's love that draws me in

And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You

I've got every kind of reason to be here with God.

but it's his love that draws me in.

so much that all i'm desp.

desp to just have a glimpse of you.

and of cos the final part.

where my heart felt apart.

You hold the universe

You hold everyone on earth

You hold the universe

You hold

Above all fears and trouble.

He holds.

not a paper..

not a cup

but the universe.

and he hold everyone on earth.

and the song remind us 2 times at the end that

he is above everything.

and well at this point,

i'm totally with God.

i cried.

being reminded how great he is..

we finish the worhsip session with

How great is our God

and indeed.

he is Great and will be Great forever and ever.

God! You are just............ Great!

2008-12-02T23:44:00.002+08:00

God! You are just......

Super superly Great.

You know.

This is one of the sentence that is least thought of.

It's been a lonnnnnggg week

having to fly back from Bali on friday.

and right after that..

we were on this Fly by night video challange.

Sigh

though im really passionate about making films.

But not this way.

Lots of comments.

lots of arguments..

disagreements going on in the office

yet as a side person

I was reminded about God's greatness.

Today as i was sitting down..

thinking about so many things.

work.. my workmate who is worried very much..

the words that was spoken on monday.

suddenly.

God shown me the picture of how great he is.

Why so?

"I will praise you in the storm~"

In the morning.

i was just scrolling through and i found this song.

which i hardly listen to..

but

i took time to listen to it and

God shown me..

my trip to Bali.

You know..

from the beginning..

alot of people have made things sounds so bad.

how scary it is.

but

i saw a new perspective when i cry out to God

God says.

Because you are my child.

I've went ahead of you.

Because you are my Child.

I'll shelter my protection above you.

and honestly.

though i was kinda homesick

(haha)

but the best part of this whole blog is this.

1st

on the way towards bali

My boss did told us that

there will be a under table money thing

cos we are carrying huge luggages and stuff.

so if they do so.. this is the sum of money u should give them.

So on the plane.

I was just asking God.

You know.. papa..

i wanna believe.

that there will be no need of undertable money.

and God said.

Yea that can happen..

but in my heart.

i question God.

i said..

eh but God..

everyone says there are undertable money..

how is it possible to...

and God says

dont u believe in me?

all things are possible?

so pick up your faith and trust in mE.

So then i just said.

Ok God!

Becaus of youe.

There shall be no undertable money.

and everything will be done in your ways.

guess what?

True enough.

there isn't any undertable money at all..

2nd

During the return Trip.

we were choosing the seats.

but the airplane was quite full

so we dont really have much choices

So anyhow one of the crew requested for a window seat.

and in my heart

i was telling God

God. I wish i could have the window seat.

that's all i said

and the guy went on saying

oh i'm sorry sir.

but we only have one window seat

and one emergency seat

and the other 3 seats will be together.

so i'm like

sighs

so i walk into the aircraft..

and i was just hoping that my seat is at least near the window.

but guess what?

The God i serve..

he loves me enough to listen to my smalllllest request.

i put up my luggage.

and I read my seat number.

and it's a WINDOW SEAT!

and the rest of my friends took the other seats..

lol..

How great. Is our God.

SING WITH ME!

How Great! Is our God.

and all will sing how great..

how great..

Is Our God!

The battle of my mind and heart

2008-11-30T21:11:00.002+08:00

Yeah..

i guess before anything

i should greet everyone that

i'm home finally.

10days not very long..

but not very short either.

if you did realize

i was quite in a hurry to come home.

oh wells~

It's been a rather tough day for me.

with lots and lots and lots of thoughts running through.

You know like how sometimes

you just couldn't help it but cry within your heart

this is the 3rd week since i last spend my day in the church.

and

i've to say that

at this point of time

i'm very desperate..

desperate for his pressence.

the fellowship time with my friends who loves God as much as i do

and

it was so bad that i started to cry while going back to work..

not cos i was emo.

but i was just begging God..

to give me abit more of him..

abit more of his saints fellowship

Sighs~

Just spoken to Jidi

felt much better.

yeah.

things will get better.

2 more days

2008-11-26T13:32:00.002+08:00

Hey guys.

lol.

you know what guys?

i'm very touched and glad.

that every single time i log on online.

i hear greetings from you all

it got me very encourage

to work on.

and to look forward to meeting u guys once again.

and of cos more importantly

my family members.

My sister whom have been smsing

and msn-ing with me all the time.

making sure that she updates me

about what's going on at home.

i mean

ok yes let's face it.

truth is.

i'm homesick now.

LOL

but on the serious side.

i'm looking forward every single min.

every single day

to see you guys.

and u never know how much

it mean to me when

you guys tag on my board

or email me..

or even just coversate over gmail.

somehow it just brighten up my day

I guess i'm inexperience

in being away from home for long.

but for sure.

this is a good ground

to train for mission.

lol

i mean every single team is a

whole new group of people

u got to force yourself to

mix with their culture

and their way of working

and yet still live up to your standard lifestyle.

can be quite tough at time.

like how i always need the tv to be on

before i sleep.

not alot of people can accept this ok.

but i'm knowing more and more people who has this habit

around..

lol

But anyhow,

yeah i really appriciate you guys all

and i'll see u back in 2 days yeah.

Jiayou!!

Counting down.

2008-11-22T23:11:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone..

Greetings from Bali..

hmm.

actually i did try to blog on the first day..

but somehow the connections has some problem

but anyhow.

YES!!

ALOHA!!

erm ok no link.

yeah

i'm seriously counting down on the number of days

back to Singapore.

of cos i'm really enjoying my stay here..

what can you ask more when

you are staying in a 6 star resort for free!!

right?

but seriously..

the service here is amazing..

and the view here...

........

(smiles) Mind blowing..

i was trying to take as many pictures as possible..

(sigh i regret that i didn't bring the slr camera.. now i'm

suffering with the small canon digi cam i have)

anyways,

yes i was trying to take as many picture as possible..

and i concl it with a sentence..

Bvlgari Hotel & Resort..

there is no way you can capture the resort

by video or camera..

you need to be here..

to see how amazing it is..

really..

zhen de...

hahaa..

this place...

really the right place for honeymoon.

couples will love this place..

nice rooms..

nice toilet...

nice services..

nice food..

oh yeah i am like putting on weight.

sigh..

when i'm back in Singapore..

i need to start to work out..

lol..

alrighty people..

i'm moving on to the 2nd resort later..

tag me yeah..

Miss you guys lotss!!!

takes a deeeeeeeep breath

2008-11-17T23:41:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone.

Yeah i'm flying off later in the morning..

Gonna catch some sleep

before i wakes up at 3am to prepare myself..

and get to office to set off to Airport and to bali.

Well..

somehow peace is in my heart.

And i'm glad that i'm still at peace

LOL!

I will make it de!

Everywhere i go..

God's blessing shall be upon that place..

and protection will be in that place too..

and yeah.

I'll prop upload pictures..

or maybe some stuff..

or blog..

or msn when i'm free in the evening..

after the whole day shoot.

shall do so..

So yeah.

Thank God for everything.

and i shall see u guys online later..

Coolsome!

Near weekends.

2008-11-13T22:41:00.002+08:00

hey everyone.

yes it's me again..

and it's always me.

cos this is my blog..

hahaa..

why am i crapping again.

anyways.

yeah these few days.

quite slack.

during work really nothing much to do.

besides in the morning making some phonecalls

to make sure schedule are done up.

people knows what they need to do.

etc etc

otherwise we are pretty much

to ourselves doing research..

read ups on which ever country we will be heading..

and yeah i've been reading up

on the hotels..

goodness..

6stars hotels..

totally different..

priv pools to the villas..

but yeah.

i think this will be a good trip.

I know people are worried.

esp my mum

but you know what?

God is in control.

and i know i'll be back fine.

Have faith in him.

Yup.

oh man yes..

and i really thank God.

that i do have a off day on saturday.

goodness..

have been working 10am to 7pm every day.

now peak period so no choice.

got to just do it.

after the filming all..

weekends should be off liao.

but yeah.

in all.

I still wanna Thank God for everything

Coolsome!!

Task #1: Flying off to Bali

2008-11-11T23:12:00.002+08:00

Well it's comfirmed..

that i'll be leaving for Bali next tues.

Everything came so sudden.

took me quite awhile to handle the waves of

suprises..

but yeah

2nd day of work.

have been quite fine.

During the day was like soaking myself in Bali

everything i'm seeing is just Bali..

lol..

but yeah..

had lunch with my boss..

he talks alot..

but i know he is a very good mentor to follow after..

as in someone to learn from.

Oh wells..

this week end i'll have to work.

cos will be flying off on tues..

got lots of stuff to prepare i suppose.

First day of work

2008-11-10T23:09:00.002+08:00

Oh man..

first day of work...

For the first time in my life..

i understood what's it's like to work full day..

and seriously working

lol..

from morning 10am till 7pm.

Good whole 9hours of work.

but!!

It was great..

Meeting new friends..

they have been

quite entertaining..

however..

i guess it's a first day work problem

when u kinda tries to fit in..

like how

When u are so new to the enviroment

and when everyone on earth

is speaking of the same point

but u just dont understand the inside jokes..

or whatever it is..

but well..

i'll get over it soon..

Anyways,

it was quite a huge bomb that was dropped in my heart today..

cos it was my first day..

and guess what?

my boss decided that he might wanna send me

to bali next week

with the team..

it was quite a sudden shock to me..

cos i wasn't prepared for this

really.

but i told him give me a day to think about it..

and alot of doubts came to my mind..

like things might go wrong..

bad things might just happen..

etc etc..

anything that is wrong..

just entered my mind..

but when i was on the train.

asking God..

speaking to him..

at the end of the journey..

i came to a concl.

Honestly..

everywhere is in danger..

and i guess zhen de..

if it's time for things to happen the way it should be..

it will just happen..

and i told God..

God.

I'm giving this all up to you.

If you know something is going to go wrong..

you make all things fail..

that you will protect your children.

and her friends.

But!

If you say yes..

Go.

I'm trusting you that u will protect everyone.

nothing will go wrong.

and everything will go in your ways.

So well..

Papa..

It's up to you now ba..

hehheh..

Man i'm getting sleepy..

Okie..

got to sleep..

tmr got to get up early for work..

Okie.

Night Night people..

hOPe this encourages u somehow.

Starting of a new chapter

2008-11-09T22:14:00.001+08:00

Oh man.. i've no idea how can i say this..
but erm yeah..
the email have been back to comfirm that..
i will start work tmr..

I'm happy but more importantly..
i'm kinda nervous about what's gonna happening tmr...

like erm..
yeah..
just hahaa..

ok..
but yeah Thanks to Tuck Wah..
reminded me about God in the picture..

"If God is with us..
who can be against us..
and All things are possible through Christ.."

So well..
God!
I'm Counting on You once Again..

=)

This is interesting.

2008-11-03T14:45:00.004+08:00

Erm..
i was just thinking..
am i slow that i didn't discover this fun thing?
or are people too fast?

Lol..
Anyways u must be thinking what am i talking about..
yes
it's
PHOTO FUNNIA!!
LOL...
interesting..
here are some pictures i've done...
on myself..

1st round of surprise on Jidi's birthday!!

Lol.. this is Jidi (in her paper made bikini) and Esther Foong.

Haaaa...
what a week...
i was looking through my schedule for this week..
Goodness...
tHERE is CGS...
there is edits...
meeting with people...
work...
Care and Share

Jesus!!
lol...

in my mind and my heart now..
no idea why..
but i'm just glad.. and happy..
with the fact that God is still with me..
maybe it's after yesterday's sermon..
but..

just now actually i was really warm..
so i went to took out this fan.
and it's really dirty..
rusty...
dust that is already gathered in rows..
really really old and dirty..
so i was warm..
and i took it to the toilet..
and clean it..
using the brush..
cloth..
and i was like..
oh man this dust will never come off..
as in like every single one..
there will be some parts that are dirty..
and i can't imagine if i on it..
how the dust reacts to me..

so i've decided..
well since it's already like this..
i shall spray water and wash it...
and of cos after that it's clean..
but the floor was super dirty...
so i wash my legs looking quite gross..
and also the floor..
and suddenly..
Words came to me...

"You know.. Your legs or your body may be dirty while cleaning the mess..
it may even stinks... but all you have to do after it is to wash it off
with water.. and it's clean.. and same goes for your life...

You may have mess up in life.. or some might even feel unworthy cos of
the dust that you have collected through the years.. but realize this..
that when u come to me.. my water will make you clean."

When i hear that..
i was like..
wow...
i'm glad..
really...
=)

Happy BirthDay Jidi! (@ the Super Poke Party)

2008-11-02T01:59:00.003+08:00

Yest was Jidi's birthday...
and erm well today we just kinda (sort of) lol..
celebrated her birthday in a very special way..

We had a pre birthday surpise..
where we have des and ah tan to run around us in circles..
(too bad i didn't bring my cam..)
and erm we had banners made by our lovely Esthers and Dot..
which says...
"We (heart shape) love Jidi" and her never melting cake..
that is made of paper..
lol..

but anyhow she love it.. which is the most important thing..

and today!!
we invited her over to the Foong's house.. (elvin and esther foong tan's)

and here are some pic to entertain you..

Happy Birthday Jidi!
=)

Decided to put one of my fav song now..
I'm Counting on God!

Woot

Count your blessing!!

2008-10-31T00:06:00.003+08:00

Say yo...
Hey...
everyone...

Lol..
u know what?
I've even no idea what to say eh..
lol

I was actually just reflecting about so many things that is..
happening around me these few weeks..

and at the same time..
i was just so drawn to the song "Counting on God"
and zhen de..
during this period of time..
i can say that..
without the mind set of myself counting on God's strength..
God's favor.. God's blessings.. (and the list goes on)
i would not have been a happy woman..
and like the song says..

"Joy unspeakable that won't go away
And just enough strength
To live for today
So I never have to worry
What tomorrow will bring
'Cause my faith is on solid rock
I am counting on God"

And i started to think..
To live with God's strength..
there is nothing for us to worry about
cos God's strength is never ending..
but alot of us (even myself)
sometimes we just live with our own strength..
so ended up..
we get tired..

but anyhow..
point here is..
same goes for our daily lives..

I was just talking to one of my friend..
and we were just talking about jobs and stuff..
and all of a sudden..
i was reminded to count my blessing..
You know..
sometimes.. we take many things for granted cos we grew up with it..
things like.. health.. alive.. somewhere to live.. friends.. family..
these are the things we grew up with once we were born..
and i question myself.. my every single breath is a favor and grace from God..
and even health.. having the fact that i'm not falling ill..
or having certain sickness.. that's also a favor from God..

Sometimes we just dont realize that "things could have been worse"
and seriously..
life is too short for us to regret about things..
and really if we do take time..
every single day to write down the blessings that we have been bless..
life will be much better..
cos every single day u can be glad that u have been bless with something..
just like how when u go and shop for something..
and u bought something u love so much..
when u get home u can't wait to open it and use it..
it's the same..
Blessing are not just for the big things...
it's for the smallest thing like..
oh my mum bought me lunch today..
it's not a must that our parents have to buy things for us..
or even me able to bless someone..
i'm sure u feel good about it...
cos u have create a chance for that another person to thank God for something also..

Speaking of blessings..
ive no idea how great God have been to me..
the last time i was bless with a 50bucks..
and on wed..
i was bless with a ticket to "Tommy Emmanuel's" concert..
it was such a mind blowing concert..
and i'm totally bless by the show..
and today..
I've recieve a job offer.
i mean..
really... this period of time...
is really the lowest lowest of the lowest period of my 21 years of life..
but then yet in the mist of it..
i saw how God came through in my life..
that seriously.. i cannot deny that God's is so real.. and God is so faithful..
when he says he will give it to u..
he will make it happen..

So i really want to encourage whoever is reading this..
that you continue to live life to the fullest..
and maybe to some of you..
to remind you (and also myself) that God is always faithful..
you may not see what he is doing..
but really.. he always surprises us.. in his own special way.
be patient in what u are asking for..
and just hang on to him...

You totally rocks God..

totally..
=)

untitled

2008-10-24T01:07:00.003+08:00

.....

i'm sitting infront of the comp..
reflecting on the thoughts that had gone through the past few hours..
what happened..
how i responded..

*breaths in*

at some point..
my heart breaks..
not in the bad sense..
but more like..
Lord..
i'm so ashame of myself..
i shouldn't have reacted this way..
but i did..
and i breaks your heart..

to hear the way a respond from a non-believer..
hurts my heart even more..

Lord..
forgive me..
so many times..
i've taken granted your grace and mercy in my life..
Thinking that it's a must for me to wake up in the morning..
getting every breath from you..
Lord i know..
no matter how many times of sorries or asking for forgiveness..
it doesn't makes much difference..
because first of all i dont deserve it..
but lord...
you know..
i want...
i want to choose..
choose to live in your way once again..
tough road ahead..
but lord..
i choose..
to worship you..
purify my heart soul and mind..
what i am.. i have.. belongs to you..

In Jesus Name I pray..
Amen.

=_)

I'M BLESS!!

2008-10-19T23:08:00.002+08:00

"Today is the day..
That you have made..
I will rejoice and be glad in it..
Today is the day
That you have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it..
I won't worry about tomorrow..
I'm trusting what you say..
Today is the day..."
- By Lincoln Brewster / Paul Baloche

YES YES!! TODAY IS THE DAY..
FOR?

TODAY IS THE DAY TO REJOICE!!

Lol..

Seriously...
i've no idea why..
joy was just over-flowing in my heart of how true God is..
Why?

Cos i've been blessed!
and i know that i'm serving a Great Great Great and Mighty God!

I remember the whole of last week..
goodness..
it was like one of those week that u really count down the amount of money is left
in your wallet..
and worse still..
i'm counting down my money left in my ez card..
and well.,..
in my wallet left..
coins.. that are worth of like 2bucks plus?
and my ez card...
lol left also about 2bucks plus..
so at the start of the week i've told God..
"Papa.. this week.. no going out ok..
got to stay at home and save up some money..
even if it's to eat just veg.."

So.. it was tues..
yes i recalled tues..
i was planning to finish up some design work..
but then i got online and spoke to my cousin..
and she was telling me that her neck is hurting so she is gonna go for the treatment at novena..
you know.. at this point of time..
i hate it when God always do this..
he said..
"Hey accompany your cousin.. "
i struggled alittle not that i dont wanna go out..
but i'm like
"GOD!!! DIDN'T I TOLD U!! NO MONEY!!"
and he was like..
"Oh wells... she is hurting. her neck.. your cousin.."
so i was like..
"Hey cousin u want me to pei you?"
and she actually said it's ok..
but then i was convicted that i should
so anyhow i met up with her..
Took a bus down..
and in return..
i was bless with a really nice dinner..
and a journey back..
but more importantly..
i got to spend time talking to my cousin..
and speaking of all the young childhood times..

ANYHOW!!
on Wed..
Ah tan called me..
after my jog he was like..
Eh Yvonne u wanna go K tmr? cos Wei Siang is going to the army soon..
Then i was like..
"Well.. i'm free.. for sure.. but I'VE NO MONEY!!"
so haha i let it pass..
feeling really sadden..
i told God " papa.. see lar... if the money would have come in earlier.. i could have,, "
so that was wed.. sadden day..

then today..
in the afternoon...
all of a sudden
Dorothy call me and she pass me an envelop..
oh btw today..
i'm left with SGD$1.50
that's my bank account this morning..
so yes.. she pass me an envelop..
and i asked her who is it from?
and she just said "Just keep it.." and with that smile (standard dorothy smiling face)
and meijing and i was like ok...
so on the envelop it says "Yvonne, F11/12,Youth,Singer"
Honestly..
i dont really understand the person who wrote it..
like erm.. detail in a very interesting way..
so anyhow..
i open up the envelop..
and i was like !!!!
and meijing was like!!!!!
and i asked her..
You saw it? and she was like ya!!!
it was a 50dollar note inside..
i was like!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol..
wow wow wow!!
amazed..

the best part of this whole thing is not about the money.. really..
i'm thankful of cos..
but the best part was..
the one prayer that Jidi had with me..

I had a talk with her..
and she asked me..
"So what do you want from God this week?"
i was kinda surprise but then i said..
"Well.. God is God.. let him surprise me.."

and THERE YOU GO!!!
WOW!!!
Lol!!

_claps claps.._

-The more i seek you -

2008-10-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

The More I Seek You - by Kari Jobe

The more i seek you,
The more i find you
The more i find you, The more i love you.

I wanna sit at your feet
Drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breath,
Feel your heart beat..
This love is so deep, it's more than i can stand.
I'm melt in your peace, It's overwhelming.
----------------------------------------

*breaths in*
I was just taking some time..
to seek him..
understand his love deeper again..
and yeah i log on to the podcast..

Search..
Seeking him..

I took this 2 things with me..
and i started to tune into this song that was writen by Kari Jobe..
i listen to it putting it on repeating mode..
The.. pure-ness of this song..
has shown me the father's love..
and also the love i wanna desire..

you know..
sometimes.. it's so easy for us to sing this song during service..
during cell group..
but in our troubled times..
in the lowest time of our lives..
when almost every single thing comes crashing on our face..
it's tough to mean this song from our hearts..
but..

you know what?
the beauty of this song..
is the simplicity of the attitude in this song..
u realize in the verse..
it leads from one step to another..

The more i seek you.. the more i find you..
and the more i find you.. the more i love you..
think about this..
if finding God's love is according to what's written..
then what we need to do is just to even bother to first seek him..

because only when we first seek him then we will know who he really is.. and soon we'll find ourselves falling in love with him..

but the song didn't end here..
in the chorus..
it describes the whole experiences when u fall in love with him..

isn't it true when we fall in love with someone..
these are the things we wish would happen..
laying back against you and breath..
feel your heart beat..

and...
this love is so deep.. so deep that i'm melting in his peace..

it's overwhelming...

Wow! Amazing! Part 2

2008-10-13T23:28:00.000+08:00

Man,.,
Thanks to mama and papa who show me this link...
amazing...

seriously check it out..

=)

Wow! Amazing!

2008-10-12T01:22:00.002+08:00

hey people!!
Yes my blog is in the progress of it's new..
FACE LIFT!!
thanks to miss Charis Wong..
who is so helpful to make my blog the way it is now..
and yes..
soon soon,.,
all your blog links will be up...
be patience k?

anyhow..

yes..
i was just spending my day today..
actually not today..
rather night..
after meeting the client..
(*sweats.. 4hours of meeting.. non stop talking..)
i almost died at subway..

but anyhow..
yes i was just spending some time..
reading the word..
and listening to the podcast..
*btw do subscribe to edgecast mini on your itunes to know more about his word.
and i was just reading

2 Cor 8
the whole chapter was talking about giving..
of cos when we say Giving..
first thought...
MONEY!
lol..
hey it's nature to think that way..
but in the chapter..
it did also speaks of our gifting..
not just money..
but our time..
everything..

In the chapter they kept highlighting the attitude of Giving is what that matters..
and again. when we offer something to God..
u know it really doesn't matter if u give like a 100bucks..
or a 1 dollar..
and it also doesn't really matters if we spend like 10hours sitting around church office serving..
if our hearts and attitude are not right..
if we are just out there to show people oh how involve are we..
then we totally lose the purpose of blessing people..
that's why it says..

"Those who gathered too much bad nothing left...
Those who gathered only a little had all they needed.."

We always bug like how unfair life is..
when others are better well doing then us..
but sometimes let's just take a step back and think about it..

In 2Cor 8:13-14
I am not trying to make life easier for others by making life harder for you. But it is only fair for you to share with them when you have so mucn, and they have so litter. Later, when they have more than enough, and you are in need, they can share with you. Then everyone will have a fair share.

See i know in the world..
it's just hard to find people like this..
but when i took a step back and think..
hey actually it did happen in my life..
cos i remember the days when we stood for each other..
helping each other WITH NO MOTIVES..
but we took that right attitude to bless someone.. (in serving or things)
and in turn.,.
in my lowest period..
People bless me back.. with encouragements.. etc etc..
God has plan as such that..
oh everyone on earth today shall be poor..
no no..
God took into consideration of every indivisual.. in order for us to learnt how to bless each other..

and check this out..
this is the coolest verse of the whole chapter..

2Cor 8:4
" They even asked and begged us to let them have the Joy of giving their money for God's people.."

Have a thought about it..
i was like totally Wow about this..
thinking..
how am i able to have such attitude..

and talking about purpose..

I continued to read..
John 17
Amazing and powerful verse..
i read the whole verse..
and i was very very amazed but how clear minded Jesus was..
So many of us living on this earth..
how many of us actually really knows why are we here..
or why do we do the things we do..
why do we believe the things we believe..
In this verse..
it shown me 3 things about Jesus..

1. Jesus knew why he was here..
2. Jesus was clear of his task and timing with the things God had called him to.
3. Jesus stood on our behalf..

In this verse basically was Jesus' Prayer to God before one of his disciple betray him..
I was amazed by what he prayed for..
and we were just having cell group yest..
and one thing i've picked up and take home from was that..
Even in our toughest time in life..
things just doesn't seems right..
but what makes it amazing and beautiful is when we stand up and say..
"God.. you know what? all things fails.. it's ok.. I still have you,,"
Like what Jeremy said in the podcast..
Jesus didn't say..
"Oh lord.. pls save me from this stupid thing...
pls make sure that tress will fall that the Judas and the rest wont make it in time..
GOd pls make them fall down so that they wont come.."
No! Never in that prayer.. Jesus asked God to save him from the pain he is about to go through..

But the amazing thing is..
Jesus said this..
"Father.. Let your will be done.. because i've come to this earth for this very purpose.."
Wow..
how amazing it is isn't it?
i mean seriously...
He is about to be caught and be crucified..
he wasn't insecure..
he wasn't scare..
but he was confident..

Best part of the verse..
He stood for us..
he didn't just stood only on behalf of his disciples..
but for those who believes in him..
and he so desire us to be as one..
be unite as one just like how he is united as one with God..

have a thought about it..
amazing isn't it?
=)

Business as Usual

2008-10-01T13:45:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone..

It's holiday today!!
Goodness...
was working till late at night yest..
and i kinda woke up only a few hours ago..
which is like erm.. 1pm?
LOL..

anyhow..
Yes Business as usual..
which ever way u wanna take it..

Yes!

"Untitled" - Like a Star's 4Th Draft is done..

I've been spending almost like 2 days to just sit down and
finish up my script..
Of cos being alittle influence by the film

"Sliding DOors"
really cool film..

with a difference of few secs/min
makes the whole different in this Lady's life..

Well..
but yes..
Draft 5 will be on the way..

Fighting the Flesh.

2008-09-28T23:17:00.002+08:00

It was a today's sermon that proberly shaken alot of us...

Today, Pastor Terri Wong shared a sermon on..
Fighting the Flesh..

You know..
the whole service started off with me thinking that..
it's just funny how he sounded..
I remember myself turning to Michelle and trying to recall
who he sounded like...
And i soon realized he sounded alot like..
A character from Simpson..
but then anyways..

Yes..
everyone of us are all born with the inbuilding called..
Sin.aka flesh...
During the part 1 of his sermon..
he spoke about how important it is for us to make sure that..
the desire of our flesh all dies.
not just some part of it but everything..
Now, you know killing the flesh is never easy..
it takes courage.. braveness.. and discipline in order to achieve it...
but sometimes we just dont see how important it is to do so..

oh btw..
i'm not just saying this to everyone but that include myself also..

i'm struggling with so many other things also..
cos i'm also a human that is like anyone of you..
but point here is..
sometimes we allow the flesh of bitterness..
the flesh of emo-ness.. all kinda thing..
to take over our lives..
and sometimes even into the ministry we are in...
and that's where ministries.. churches family torn apart..

So now when we look at it this way..
actually..
one step of disobedience = a huge lost..

The fact that we are humans...
u know.. we loveeeee..
LOVE to the max..
to live in our bitterness..
Gossiping about the people we hated..
and when we found out something about them..
HA! that's it..
We reason with our actions..
I once read a book and it says that..
YOu know..
we do reason with our actions alot..
Fact: we want to know or gossip abotu someone-else's life.
Reason: We are concern..(presuming that as being spiritually concern)

It's a thin line for us to draw..
between being real concern and being kaypo..

Isn't it true?

this link me to Jeremy's msg about Hostage.
The last eps of Hostage..
and it's titled as Secrets..
As we grew older..
Secrets is no longer something that we love to exposed..
Habits or issues in our lives..
we just dont wanna let it be exposed into the light..
but then sometimes..
u do realize that if it's being kept within for long..
we gonna get cancer from it..

Ok this is getting too long..
for more details on Hostage..
GO FOR YOUR NET!!

Hahaha..
ok

Just at thought about it.

2008-09-21T02:33:00.002+08:00

I was chatting with Sam this afternoon...
A thought just passes by me..
or rather..
i should say a picture..

Remembering..
every single time..
or morning..
before services starts..
we pray?
and we Ask God to come in..
but..
u know..
the picture that i saw..
was really like wow..

ok let me try to tell u in detail..
U know we always call the church the house of God..
but u know..
actually so many times..
before service starts..
I saw God sitting at the front row of the santuary..
and he was like..
preparing himself..
praying..
and i saw the smell of his pressence..
just slowly flow out of his body and slowly filled the santuary..

the santuary is quiet..
no one is around..
but quietly God took time to just lay hands on every chair...
check the sound system.. video..
see if everything is in place..
and erm..
maybe..
just maybe some of us left some rubbish on the floor and God kinda picked it up..
and throw it into the bin..
lol..
i dont know but..
the fact that God is so close to the santuary.
it kinda got me thinking..
that..
If God..
such a busy man..
would take time to make sure he is there early to pray..
what more should i say..
i'm tired lar..
dont wanna go..

and sec pic i saw was..
u know the fact that God has already let his pressence to float around the santuary..
the moment the person who opens the door..
every single one of us are walking through and with his pressence..

Seriously..
God is like the planner for the service..
the service leader actually..
but u know..
people say man can't multitask..
but God can..
he is like a super multitasker...
he can do so many things..
so maybe sometimes there are feedback that can't be solved or what..
God can lead the pastor yet solving the sound problem or so..

how cool would that be right..

and really..
the coolest thing is..
he is my dad...
and also yours..

What a cool Dad i have.
=)

Papa..
I love u..

thinking...

2008-09-20T00:31:00.004+08:00

*breaths in..*
*breaths out..*

haaa..~~

i really dont know what to say..
lol..
i've..
been thinking alot this week..
matter of fact..

i've come to a point that i couldn't stop thinking..
be it..
my current job..
or my future..

after so much talking..
voices..
that's going around me...
it's time to realize...
that..
life..
doesn't just goes around me..

but reality sets in that..
life is moving around your family...
the needs in the family..
and sometimes..
the price to pay for this..
is just too high,...
it takes sacrifices..
in order to pay for it to make things right...

Yeah..
all i can say is..
Lord..
have your way..
only u know what's best for me..
but if there is a need to wait..
tell me..
really..
i've waited for someone..
dumbly at Delifrance for 3 whole hours..
i'm sure my patience is long enough to wait for your directions..
but Lord..

let me know..

when will things change?

2008-09-18T01:06:00.002+08:00

It's been almost a year..

today..
i'm sitting infront of my computer..
wondering..
when...
when will things change?
it's always the moment of trying to forgive and let go of someone's mistake..
something...
just something has to come up and slaps u right on the face..

it's so tiring to do so time and time again..
patience..

i sat down at the bus stop today..
waiting for 506..
sitting down for almost 45mins..
i looked forward..
thinking that the next bus might be 506..
but bus after bus it just isn't the bus i'm waiting for..
i've waiting..
for a year..
i'm still waiting Lord..
things hasn't change..
in fact..
each time..
things get worse..
i still stood by and tell myself that..
things can only get better...

I'm watching a comedy show in tears...

Finally! the first stepping stone.

2008-09-16T22:22:00.006+08:00

‘Toilet’ is a bizarre and twisted visual piece that teems with potential but wallows in being disturbingly sensational rather than persuasively swaying, especially in letting the audience understand its theme. Yet, its art direction and production values hit a credible benchmark. -Juan Foo

It was about few days back that i actually..
got to chat with Joshua over msn..
It's been some time since Toilet was finished that we kinda chat..

I was glad he is doing alright..
It was also about few days back that i recieved an emailing..
saying that "Toilet" had made it to the BRNO16..
One of the Film festi located in Europe, Czech Republic.

When i first saw the email..
it didn't hit me that this is actually the first stepping stone..
to many many things..
however, as usual i congruatate Joshua with the success of his filming making to
somewhere that far..
It was then..
He told me about the remark that was commented by Juan Foo..
@ sinema.sg..
When i read it..
it hits me even more that..
hey..
directions are changing...
it's the first stepping stone for myself..

I reflect back..
and i thought to myself..
it was a really tough journey..
a journey i'll never forget..
but now..
i guess it's all worth it..
with all the arguments.. quarrels..worries.. sleepless nights.. sweats.. tears.. laughters..

it's all worth it.
Thanks you papa.

the mark to the real world

2008-09-03T23:20:00.002+08:00

oh man..
Today..
marks the day to say..
Goodbye Lasalle.. student life...
and Welcome world..
Had my graduation ceremony..
It was my very first time attending a ceremony of my own..
and to walk up the stage with all attention given to you..
For a moment i'm like..

"Hey.. Yvonne..
i'm so proud of you.."

i mean seriously..
it hasnt been easy..
to walk through the past 4 years in Lasalle..
challanges from everywhere..
and by God's grace.. and favour..
I've made it..

anyways.. that aside..

Thinking that today is the grad day..
i've decided to ask a few of my friends to join me for dinner..
then we had ichiban sushi..
The food was really...
*drooling...
We had quite a number of food..
oh wells..
but only when i got hom i was like..
OH CRAP!!
didn't take photos..
wasted..
but anyhow...
after dinner..
Esther and Dot was like..
let's do "That thing"
u know when people start saying that kinda stuff..
it's not gonna be anything good..
lol..
and true enough...
it was a 4feet..
in my mind..
i'm thinking..
ok lar..
since it's a special day..
whatever they want me to do..
i will do it..
so they bring me to this..
place..
it's an open space in IMM..
and...
u know kids who puts coin into the animal..
and they get to drives about..
and guess what?
yes they got me to ride the elephant..
and then for 5mins..
i've to drive it about..
Thank Goodness by it didn't made it to the kopitiam..
if not...
lol...

it was quite fun..
thing is..
this animal thingie..
it has no age limit..
therefore..
no matter how heavy u are..
they can take u on...
yeah..
basically that's my day
i guess..

=)

I am a Friend of God

2008-09-01T19:43:00.002+08:00

Who am I that You are mindful of me
That You hear me when I call
Is it true that You are thinking of me
How You love me it's amazing

I am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
He calls me friend

God Almighty, Lord of Glory
You have called me friend

Yesterday..
We were preparing the songs..
and we sang "Friend of God by Isreal Houghton.

You know sometimes i just realize that..
the simplier the song is..
the more meaning and thoughts we should put into..

Like this song..

i was being reminded about certain situations in my life..
ok cos..
i'm in the media line..
and in quite a few projects that i've worked on..
we actually get to meet people from the media industry.
Actors..Actress...
and erm..
you know when we are off work..
we start to tell our friends about who we met..
and what we saw them doing that was funny..
what kinda person they are..
and all of a sudden..
when i was singing this song..
i was reminded like..
hey you know who God is or not?
He is one that is even more popular then anyone else on earth..
and me..
Someone who live in Singapore..
which is only a dot on the map..
he is paying attention to me..
and of cos you..

What more can i ask from this God who is so Great..
Really...
I need to start paying much more attention on him..
and be proud to share about him..
like how i shared about the experience i had with the media people..

a fresh beginning

2008-08-30T00:05:00.002+08:00

man..
it's been quite some time since i've updated my blog..
ha...

*breaths in*
you know..
i've no comments on so many things..
so much so that..
haha i also dont know how to start to tell you...

OK!
JIA YOU!
let's do it..

Yes..
today.
after net i spoke to Esther Foong-tan..
and i was just pouring out my troubles and stuff to her..
suddenly she said this..

"the Yvonne i see now.. is very tired..
no excitment eh..."

i stop for a moment and i thought..
yeah..
the excitment for God..
where ah?

and i realize hmm..
Joy should comes within our heart...
and sometimes..
only God can filled up that joy in us..
yeah only a God like him..
is great enough to have never ending strength..
never ending joy..
he will never ever not have not enough of these..
or rather everything..

You want something?
all u've got to do is ask..

Ask and it shall be given unto you..
but then.. the 2nd part to it..
seek and u shall find..

I guess many times we ask for things...
but then we lack patience to wait for it..
then i dont bother looking for it anymore..

ha...
it's so easy to give up on things..
but yo0u know what?
though it will be so easy for God to give up on us..
(with our dirty stains)
but hey..
Good news is..
God never gives up on us and he won't..
till the day we die..
he will never let us go..

Today's net lesson..
in the mist of so many voices..
and when we are blinded by sin...
we can't see what's around us..
But when we choose to be set free..
and just focus on God..
breaking away from the things that is hindering us..
God can hold our hands from the first point to the end..
and that.. we wont fall..

Yeah never fall...
=)

The special Gift

2008-08-14T01:06:00.003+08:00

I just got home from my meeting with ping..
super funny..
cos i missed her birthday..
therefore..
today i've to made up for that missed birthday..
and well as usual..
we went to our usual "la-kopi coffeeshop"...
and had chicken wings..
which normally we don't..
lol!!

OH WELLSSS..
she has the cravings for wings..
what can i do..
but anyhow..
this is my special gift for her...

I saw her blog..
and realized everyone gave her things that got to do with hello kitty..
so i decided to give her..
Hello chicken wings..
lol...

that was quite funny..
it's actually a left over chicken wings..
so yeah..

=)

Happy 21TH BIRTHDAY PING!!
i know u will miss me..
but sobs...
dont miss me too much..

waiting for an answer

2008-08-07T19:35:00.002+08:00

oh man..
what a day..
today had been quite a fruitful day..
why so?
well cos i woke up very much early in the morning..
after the whole night of storyboarding..
and erm..
yeah went for my photo shoot..
and meeting till just now..

well much more to learnt from everyone that's all i can say..
sometimes you question yourself..
how can i be much useful in the situation you are given..
but then u realize maybe u should just take the time..
to learnt about things that are going on around you..
and apply it in the future..

but anyhow..
yes..
as i manage to borrow ah jing's laptop for a few days to get my work done..
there goes my internet services..
sigh..
LORD WHY DOES IT HAS TO BE LIKE THIS AH?
man..
seriously i realize that not having comp is not that hard to handle..
but not having net access is quite bad..
oh wait..
actually not having either one of them it's quite troublesome..
lol..
and guess what?
i'm here in the jurong west library..
thank God there was a power plug for me to get some work done here..
but yeah..

have to be honest that live hasn't been too good for me..
though i guess so many time i've appear to be glad and happy about everything..
but fact is family situation hasn't turn out any better..
worse? i'm not too sure..
but now when i took a step back and look at the bigger picture..
i've to say that i'm quite angry with how people treat things..
i mean seriously..
sometime we just got to be selfish at some point of time..
we can't just get held back by people who refuse to move on..
each of us are accountable to ourselves on how we lead our lives..
and we are given choices to do what is best for ourselves (well what we think is best)..
but really people we've got to start moving on and not get stuck with the glue that is holding us back..

problems will never leave us..
we got to just learnt to cut it away from our body and move on to a better place..
let's stop looking at each other and dwell in where we are now forever..

i told my mum this..
and all she did was smile..
sighs...

oh wells..
i guess it's the thing we value are different..
what I value..
is my family's well being..
protecting them...
That's all that matters...
that's all..

silence

2008-07-31T01:42:00.002+08:00

silence

wondering..
every single day of our lives..
we are all surrounded by sound..
and honestly..
how many times we picked up the things that are around us?

this morning i was at my grandma's place...
these few days too much things happening around the family..
too much to even start to talk about one..
but yeah today..
i was at my grandma's place and for a moment..
the house was quiet for almost full 30mins..
one of the quietest day i experience in my grandma's place..

but seriously..
i thought to myself..
sometimes..
how does one secret be hidden for a life time?
silence within your heart?
how long does it last?
and when the outburst of sound suddenly rushed in..
how do we react?

just like the moments we have with God..
how long does our silent moment last with God?
a day? 2 days?
or a life time?
i've no idea why but..
it came as a question as me..

today..
have been a great and un great day..
great cos the deal of a business is done..
but yet..
it's one of those days when..
u just couldn't rejoice over..
there is just this mode that...
u can't even smile to yourself and tell yourself you did a good job...
no matter how much people try to make u feel good.
and tell u all the good things about you..
you just lose it..

oh wells...
i guess maybe at least i can be happy about my new blog skin..
haha..
lame but yeah..

sighs..
papa ah...
tell me how!!
=(

2008-07-29T14:45:00.002+08:00

hmmm...
well guys..
it's been a long while since i blog..
reason being...

MY COMP CRASH!!
sighs..
hahaa..

well..
you know actually i was thinking about it today...
after talking to michelle..
and i realize..
how boring it is to be online 24/7 everyday..
i mean seriously...

my comp have been crashed for about 2-3weeks?
and erm i have not used the comp for that long..
and now cos i've to finish up my work..
i borrowed the comp from my friend..
and i realize..
man.. life without the comp was much more fruitful..
though i'm still stuck with the tv..
but i got to read up more..
spend more time with my family..
etc etc..

msn can be quite boring at times..
lol..
but well anyhow..
God have been still great to me..
he had done so much for me..
that i've no idea where to start from.

oh man my thoughts are everywhere...
haha ok..
i really like my new blog skin..
pls comment on it lol...
Alright..

2008-07-11T23:35:00.003+08:00

MY WERID DREAM

MAN..
i'm like so totally...
speechless..
I had this werid dreams yest night..

ok..

what happened was..
I was having breakfast with my grandma and my mum..
funny thing was..
my grandma..
she totally just want to eat this rosted pork chicken rice..
and i've no idea why but she gave me this really small baby pig..
it's pink in colour.. it's not cooked and it seems dead.. cos it's not moving at all...
so i was asked to bring to the shop to chopped it.. that is opp..
so i carry the baby pig over my shoulder..
and as i was walking towards the shop..
The baby Pig suddenly turns to me..
and it cries.. like a baby..
without sound but the face.. was like how a baby cry..
i looked at the baby pig and i went..

"Dont cry baby.. dont cry.,. shhh.. it's ok.. i wont get u kill ok.."
And the baby Pig just hugged me so tightly..
so i went to Q for the rosted pork chicken rice...

yeah..
then i woke up..
lol..

2008-07-09T00:46:00.002+08:00

it's 12:46am in the morning..
and it's a wed...
you wonder why do i speak in such a way...
guess what..
i also dont know why..

Laugh out loud..

recently..
with all the sermon and stuff..
i guess i've taken a step back and start thinking about so many things..

You know like how in life...
so many time we just went ahead with what we are doing..
not taking time to just observe the small little details...

Well..
sadly to say my comp crash lol..
the night when Esther (tan aka foong) gave me a word and also the lesson..
somehow.. it stuck on me that..
hey..
maybe it's time to take it quietly and get focus back on God.
I mean we are always busy with our work.. our family..
etc etc..
but u know when u actually take time to read his word..
and just focus on him..
there will be new perspective ...

Today i was just waiting on the lord while worshiping him...
and i started to sing..
"I love you.. i love you.. i love you..
and my heart will follow holy after you.."
This song kept ringing in my mind..
I know so many times we sing this song..
just like how we normally sing a song in kbox..

Imagine..
this is a situation that will be so real to everyone ok at least for me..
when we are heart broken..
cos we were hurt by some one..

Catg 1: Emo love song.
1. You are hurt by your dream partner.
"When you're gone.." by Avril.L
"If your hearts not in it.." by Westlife.

2. Hurt by parents? (i think so)
"Because of you.."by Kelly.C

Catg 2: Happy love song
1. "Jian dian Ai"by Jay.C
2. "Ming tian ni yao jia gei wor"by David Tao and Jolin. T

and we realize when the song relates with the situation we are in..
we sing together as how we felt..
our emotions and the song lyrics just somehow matches...
we had a break up and we starts to listen to songs like
when you're gone... and we started to cry over it..
we feel the song...
we feel the mood..
we feel the emotions...
and naturally we left that song as the mark to that relationship we left..
ok..
but point is..
coming back to God..
today when i sang that song..
It wasn't just i love you i love you i love you that was sang cos the song lyrics said so...
but i felt in my heart that..
my emotions and feeling was like what i said..
I dont know if u get it but yeah..
that was what i wanted to say..
hahaa..
no idea why..
but yeah i hope u get it..

2008-06-25T00:58:00.002+08:00

Power of faith and prayer...

Oh well..
it's tues..
and I was reflecting about what God has done..
and seriously this month is really like..
overflooded with things that God has done for me...

First of all..
i really want to thank God for my results..
and also pulling me through the 4 years in Lasalle.
I guess this 4 years hasn't been too tough or easy for me..
i mean we all know that my school is quite open minded..
Till a certain extent..
but in terms of perspective..
and also protection of the mind soul and spirit.. lol...

and erm..
2nd of all ...
favour..
favour from work..
jobs..
there sure still be quite an unclear road if what i've plan is as what God wants it to be..
but really there have been open doors that comes one after another..
that i can't stop thanking God for...
you know what i mean?
lol...

ohoh ok check this out..
previously..
i saw one of my friend (whom i've no contact for a long while)
her msn nick saying that her dad was in the hospital..
in and out very often..
and i guess it was really God's timing..
and i somehow got drawn to her nick and i just click on her msn nick and say..
hey you mind me praying for your family?
and she went on sure..
so i prayed for her..
and guess what?
the next day..
HER DAD WAS DISCHARGED!!
lol..

u know after i prayed over msn..
i was like..
God how power can a prayer over msn be..
but anyhow i prayed lo..
but God reminded me about Faith...
and i said oh ya oh ya..
sorry sorry..
lol
and see how God works..
AMEN!!

yawn~~
getting tired..
alrighty..
see u guys soon..

Blessed!

2008-06-12T16:19:00.002+08:00

Bless are those who dwell in your house..

HO! HO! HO!
It's praising God time AGAIN!!!
EXCITED@@@!!!
lol..

ok..
yes..
i really want to thank God for so many thing that happened recently..
i Guess time after time..
it has just proven that God just allow things to happened at that time that period etc..
i mean seriously..

i felt so stupid..
like one of the stupiest moment of my life..
i just blow up a job that was offered to me..
i didn't picked up the phone.
and well well.. i didn't bothered or i forgot to call back (can't remember which)whoever that had called me..
to make things worse..
i only got to pay attention to the voice mail that was left behind 2 days later...
i was like hur...
crap!!
and far worse they asked where did i call from and
i was totally blur..
i just said..
"oh i've applied some jobs i think..
and he is like u know which company is this?
and i was like..
erm.. not sure..
and he went..
u know u should be aware of where u are applying..
but anyways the jobs is not avilable any more.. "

I WAS TOTALLY ......
I mean i was thinking to myself..
if i lose the job nvm
BUT WHY I SAID I'M NOT SURE!!!
lol..
then lol..
this is funny..
cos the next moment i went on saying..
MAYBE!!
maybe God has something else for me..
because it's a job that needs to start soon..
and i dont want it to clash with esther and elvin's wedding..
MAYBE!!
maybe God just didn't want that job for me..
lol..
it was super funny..
through the night i'm just having thoughts like this..
BUT!!

God is always Good...
he got it all planned out..
just last week..
i had 2 job offer..
just within a day..
everything was comfirmed..
my first job may not be very well paid..
becuase it's a few hours job..
doing art direction for a film..
i guess it's good for port folio..
then..
my 2nd job was some editing project..
For the People's association..
and it's a 2 weeks job with quite good pay..
so..
thinking with that God was great..
Guess what?
God is good enough to say..
"You know what my dear...
i think i should give u more.."
lol

The day before..
i was just counting down the money that i've need to spend on different things..
and one of it was the design of my name card..
to promote myself..
so anyhow i came out with my design..
and i chat with my friend alittle..
and i was like.. man..
budget quite tight..
i've no idea where to get money to print..
cos it's like $24 for 2 box.
it's not ex but my budget is tight..
so well..
yest Uncle Allan called me..
and previously Wei Siang, Des, Caleb and me..
we did this whole milk powder transfering thing..
it's tough job but it's quite well paid..
and well..
Uncle Allan called and asked if we will wanna do it today morning..
so i was like SURE!!!
LOL..
and See God knows our needs in the finance part..
but he knew that we need rest also..
so well today we had Ah Tan, Joash, Wei siang, Des and me
and we did the first stack in like 30mins
and there isn't enough bags..
so we waited..
in another words slacking..
lol..
and at 2pm the boss was like..
man the bag is not here yet..
i think u guys go back lar.
it's not gonna come anyways..
i'm like THANK YOU JESUS!!!
cos i was very tired..
due to the discussion i had with jeremy and sharon yest night till 2am..
and i woke up at 6:30am..
so yawns~~

We Thank God for everything..
he knows me inside out..
so well..
all i can say is..
What a great God i serve...
=)
I love you Papa..

.somehow it hurts.

2008-06-07T00:51:00.004+08:00

Papa in heaven..
somehow..
somehow it hurts me..
everyday.. if we ever keep quiet and listen..
listen to the things around us..
you hear people screaming deep in themselves..

I remember..
about many years back..
I once or rather many times..
i cried to you every single night..
wondering to myself..
why..
why am i still affected?
I cried to you quietly into my pillow..
asking u about when..
when do i get over my feelings to a person..
to a guy..
i..
i couldnt see where the ending line will come..
where i can just sit by you..
to just focus back to you..
understanding that the love you can give me..
The love that is unseen and untouchable..
yet powerful in its own special way..

i couldn't..
i just couldn't see when will it end..
Until one day..
someone told me..
"Yvonne.. God wants you to be yourself..
you are special in your own ways..
dont..
dont ever try to be someone else..
because u are not them..
there is only one Yvonne..
no one can make another you..
and hey..
God says..
you are beautiful..
An apple in his eyes.."

Papa..
my heart melted for you..
I cried and cried..
tears of joy...
fully understood what u meant..
Those words are so common and simple..
but it broken and touches my heart..

-Pause-

Many times..
when i look back at my previous blogs..
i laugh to myself today..
how silly i was..
falling in and out of love..
when the love from u..
is beyond anything else..
but i understood..
we all go through times like this in our lives..
everyone of us are different..
we see, face and respond to things differently..

-sorry my eyes is giving me a little problem..
i need to finish this-

yes..
today..
i heard and read about a teenager..
whom i treasure..
i've no idea why papa..
it's the same love issue..
but papa..
it somehow hurts me..
i've seen so many have fallen into things like this..
yet i went on without feeling anything..
but this teenager..
who is so pure and innocent in my eyes..
when i read about her life..
God..
it breaks my heart..
i struggled..
i've no idea why i..
i prayed in my heart to you..
that...
you will bring her through..
no matter how hard things may seems..
Papa..
i know you know where she is heading..
u know what's going to happen..
and most importantly u know how to handle it..

yeah..
only you papa knows how to handle it..

-this msg and song is for you my dear friend, sister (the one and only person who will call me mummy)We still loves you as much as God loves you..

When Love takes you In

I know you’ve heard the stories
But they all sound too good to be true
You’ve heard about a place called home
But there doesn’t seem to be one for you
So one more night you cry yourself to sleep
And drift off to a distant dream

Where love takes you in and everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in

And somewhere while you’re sleeping
Someone else is dreaming too
Counting down the days until
They hold you close and say I love you
And like the rain that falls into the sea
In a moment what has been is lost in what will be

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart

And this love will never let you go
There is nothing that could ever
cause this love to lose its hold

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in it takes you in for good
When love takes you in

.bless with what you have.

2008-05-26T00:27:00.002+08:00

How many time do we actually find joy in blessing others..
i guess right now..
that's what i'm experiencing..

Well first of all i've to say i ain't RICH yeah..
lol..
but i guess that's how God is..
in time when u needed cash so badly..
and u are in the lowest of the lowest point in your life..
then God asked you to give what u are lack off..
and we question..
question God why..
i mean why u always got be be like this..
like so totally off..
but you know what?
the good news is that..
when God ask you to give..
is when he is saying that he has something better installed for you..

recently..
God have been testing me on this..
and well..
i've to say that i found joy in blessing people..
be it in things.. (ahem.. ipod)
or talents...
and hey.. listen to this..
u know God actually listens to our smallest request also..
we might think that it's such a stupid small request but God listens..
(just incase you do not realize)
like this afternoon..
during the outreach..
the drama team were presenting their drama piece..
and they got one of the new comer to join this game called..
"identity"
and well the person won like $40bucks..
just like this..
and in my heart (i was joking with God.. seriously joking)

lol u know i dont even actually realize i said that in my heart..
i said..
"wah.. i also want... 40 round up is 50 not bad "
that's it..
that's all i said or rather i said it in my heart without paying much attention to it..
but yeah after evening i went to serve..
cos one of our church member's mum passed away..
not expecting anything.
I was there playing the piano..
with shirley leading...
and..

check this out..
God had it all planned out...

1.first blessing..
i saw Bro kenny's car turning in..
*WAHAHAHAH free ride back home..

2.I saw food..
*Dinner settle..
(of cos i'm on a DIET!! so obviously i can't eat too much)

and lastly...
Sister Eunice (the daughter)
she thank us for coming and gave me an white envelope
and of cos i didn't expect that so i didn't reject it either..
lol i said thanks and i didn't look inside..
until i got home and realize it was in my pocket..
and i open it..
it was $50bucks lying inside..
man...
i was overjoyed..
cos once again..
God reminded me about him listening to me..
every single words that is spoken in my heart or outwards..
he listens...

yeah..
he listens..
=)

scary movie 5

2008-05-11T00:36:00.001+08:00

lol..
this is funny...

.hot from the oven.

2008-05-07T00:08:00.002+08:00

Yawn~
Ah jing just left my house..
tired is all i can say man..
no idea why also i guess i've woke up too early this morning..
and yeah..
not really that great of a morning i guess..
anyways let's not go there..

anyways..
this video i've found and it's funny..

it's over

2008-05-01T17:34:00.002+08:00

man..
it's been a month plus i blog i guess...
How's everyone?
Hope everyone is doing fine..

Well through this one month of media fast..
basically we fast from media..
meaning no T.V..blogs..Msn... Chatting..
Watching movie (sigh)... what else..
it's been a very interesting fast..
though i've to admit that many times..
i fast very select-ivily..
haha..

ok but yup..

ANYHOWWWWWW.....
today is labour day..
and it's public holiday...
well this morning i went breakfast with my grandma and mum..
as usual... the morninig breakfast club...
and after which..
i soon realize..
sometimes..
public holidays is when the weakness of all singaporeans comes..
i mean i'm a Singaporean..
but seriously..
why are people so impatient with things..

Case 1:
I was queing for the Korean food..
and this auntie..
was behind me..
problem here is..
it's either the stall people have such bad management
that the flow is just not right..
or this auntie is seriously impatient with getting her food..
so anyhow i ordered my food...
she stand so close to me that if i just move alittle backwards..
i will bumb onto her..
but she dont care..
she continue by moving between the person infront of me and me..
and she insisted in ordering her food..
in my heart i was like..*angerrrr...*
but i just looked at her and smile...
ok nvm..

Case 2:
I was at Lot 1 ordering pepper lunch..
(ok though it's breakfast but by the time we were there it's lunch time actually)
and Lady 1 was carrying her lunch..
and there were so many people...
there is this pillar that is so huge in the middle of the pathway..
and as usual people doesn't gives way..
this middle age Lady 2 was walking towards her..
knowing that she is gonna walk and get stuck if she insist..
Lady 1 just kindly say..
"let me cross first ok?" with a smile..
then Lady 2 kept insisting in crossing first..
Lady 1's food got poured over alittle..
and guess what? Lady 2 didn't care..
she just went ahead..

What's wrong with people?
certainly i'm proud to be a Singaporean but..
i think we need to really think about our act and start doing something about it..
sigh..

ok it's alright it's alright..
chill...

after which my mum and i went walk walk alittle..
and hehheh...
my mum bought me 2 tees...

here u go for the picture...

alrighty people..
hope you enjoy your holiday..
see u soon..
=)

Je'taime

"Improv everywhere"

2008-03-27T10:43:00.001+08:00

this is kinda interesting..

Frozen People

Mobile

Food Center Musical

'Ken lee'

2008-03-21T20:08:00.000+08:00

this is funny..

Missing shoot

2008-03-20T00:43:00.004+08:00

These are the pic for Toh's shoot..
Missing..

here are the pictures for Missing production

Films

2008-03-16T22:26:00.005+08:00

hey hey..
i've been super tired these few days that..
i forgotten to blog..
anyhow yup photos..

| tOilet shoot |

Chris (the ang mor) and Jason

eDEN the clapper...

OOoo.. the caNe marKs i've created..

My GreEn botTLe wiTH gREEN LIght Sticks IN It..

ThE toiELT thAT i'VE CreatED fRom Just 4 wAlLS..
(tOns oF sWEatSSss.. and ArgUmeNTS.. anD whaTEver u Can THINK of.. comEs thIS)

tHE oTHer SiDE.

yUp..
HopE U enjoYed THe pHotoS.

the excitement of serving

2008-03-02T23:29:00.002+08:00

ho ho ho...
it's not christmas time..
but it's Praising God time..
lol..

hmm..

it was as if God was smiling at you when
he saw you worship soooo deeply
- Esther Foong

lol..
You must be thinking what was it about..
Well..
After i think about a month..
not serving on stage..
kinda miss the feel of singing and serving at the same time..

Use to complain about it..
but now i'm seriously enjoying it..
and yes..
today it was another session of enjoyment while serving..
and once again..
that's what i prayed about at the start of the year..

but anyhow..
THANK GOD for everything..

On friday..
lol..
we were doing hand billing
around david's auntie's house..
and it was kinda funny..
cos many time dont u realize that..
when situations are not there..
u can speak as if the sky fall we wont even be scared..
but when it comes..
we are speechless..
and that's what happened to me..
lol
i stood by the door not knowing what to say..
and plainly end up..
speaking in english..
lol..

half chinese.. half english..
lol..

ok but anyhow point is..
at the end of the session..
i was just walking home..
and i saw this bunch of aunties..
no idea why but my attention was drawn to them..
and i was like..
uih God do it?
dont do it?
do it?
and God said...
"Girl ah!! Imagine if u dont do it..
WHO WILL??"
so i was like..
ok lar ok lar..
i went..
and trust me..
when u are targetting a bunch of aunties..
you need to know who is the leader of the group..
so i went to the leader of the group..
and spoke to her..
and end up..
she was like..
"A want to go for this programme..
we all go lar.."
so yes..
long story short..
she is interested!
lol..
yeah..

once again..
THank God for it..

Amen!

'The miracle' Shoot

2008-02-25T21:47:00.005+08:00

Oh oh oh..
well past few nights have been helping out in Dinu's shoot..
so yeah almost everyday got home really late..
like 3am..
and gets to sleep like 4am..
lol..

but ok i think as a whole..
i'm pretty enjoying it..

alright here are the pictures..

enjoy.

The room that we had the painful session with Chris D has been transform into
the 'No Hope Hospital' lol

The HD Verri cam.. It's the baby of the day.. needs like 3 person to take care of it

The sound guy... soon it will be me

Chris S with the tracks and monitor..

Dinu with the director's monitor..

Belinda the doctor..
I told her to beware of her Wardrobe and that's what she did.. lol.

Alright..
more to come..

.my busy season.

2008-02-22T00:57:00.004+08:00

well well well...
after so many months of waiting..
and waiting and waiting to get busy..
at least!!

the CHANCE IS HERE!!
i'm getting seriously busy now..
almost everyday i've tonss of meeting to attend to..
which is good i suppose..

i've been feeling much useless for the past few months..
and sigh yest..
this week i've lose alittle of motivation on my jogging plan..
BUT!!
BUT BUT!!
(always has to have a but.. lol)
TODAY i went jogging..
since last week..
today morning i went jogging..
therefore..
i've one more day to pick to jog..
so thank God still alright..
but yes..

getting seriously busy..
so will not blog that often..
hope you wont m iss me that much..
lol..

alright..
pictures taken today to entertain you..

=)
enjoy.

My new location for "Toilet" messy ya.. this is the pre-light session.

and this is my dear camera man Henry.

and my director Joshua reading his script or shot list.. whatever..

Oh oh!! and i found this red chair.. looks cool.. love the red..

once again henry..

atonement

2008-02-16T20:16:00.003+08:00

Atonement..
A very interesting film that i've watched today..

Plot Outline..

In 1935, 13-year-old fledgling writer Briony Tallis and her family live a life of wealth and privilege in their enormous mansion. On the warmest day of the year, the country estate takes on an unsettling hothouse atmosphere, stoking Briony's vivid imagination. Robbie Turner, the educated son of the family's housekeeper, carries a torch for Briony's headstrong older sister Cecilia. Cecilia, he hopes, has comparable feelings; all it will take is one spark for this relationship to combust. When it does, Briony -- who has a crush on Robbie -- is compelled to interfere, going so far as accusing Robbie of a crime he did not commit. Cecilia and Robbie declare their love for each other, but he is arrested -- and with Briony bearing false witness, the course of three lives is changed forever. Briony continues to seek forgiveness for her childhood misdeed. Through a terrible and courageous act of imagination, she finds the path to her uncertain atonement, and to an understanding of the power of enduring love.
-Written by Orange
*taken from imdb.com

i think you all should catch it if you can..
=)

my precious funny papa

2008-02-15T22:55:00.002+08:00

Who says God has to be serious all the time?
who says God has to speak with a heavy english language all the time?
and Who says God is never funny...

lol.
Today's net has reminded me about..
how God is flexiable..
We! Humans will get out dated with the things we know..
the things we use..
the words we say..
but hey GoD always update his RAM and dictionary..
words like Lame.Lol.la.lei.sia...
God knows and understands...
sometimes he even uses it...
I have to tell you..
he is such a awesome papa that..
is beyond words can describe..

so many times..
i've to be so proud that my papa in heaven is so hip..
cos it's like any teenager would feels and thinks that..
their father won't understand what they are going through today..
but no this father of mine in heaven..
he understands...
he is one who will dance around with you till people thinks both of you are crazy..
he is one who will sing along with you on your way home..
one who listens the music that u listens..
one who sits by your side to listens to your problems..
one who put his arms over your shoulder and say..
"everything will be fine my child"
one who will sleep by your side to read you a story..
one who will wakes up in the morning, smiles at you and gives you a kiss on the cheek..
i can go on and on about how great he is...
and yes..

i'm proud to have him as my father...
=)

Happy Valentine's day

2008-02-14T23:31:00.004+08:00

Hey everyone..
hope your valentine's day have been great yeah..
Oh well well...

today have been a usual day for me..
i guess things have come my way so much that..
i was kinda slow to realize that today is Valentine's day..
lol..
many of us today might be thinking about all the past..
relationships we have and thought..
sigh...
i'm alone this year.. sobbbss..
oR!!
Yosh! It's great that i have an extra day for myself..
lol

but no matter which way it falls unto..
i think besides being so lovie davie..
maybe let's put it another way..
Valentine's day with someone whom mean alot to you...
your buddy?
your parents?
your sisters and brothers?
Of cos i know the feel of spending time with someone you "love"
is different..
but hey..
The best is yet to come man..
lol..

The lastest song i've upload is..
"Can't take my eyes off you" by Damien Rice
In a film Called "Closer"
a really nice film..
Enjoy =)

Diet Soda is still ain't that healthy.

2008-02-12T11:37:00.000+08:00

lord..
what else are we left with??
sobs sobss...

Guys do watch this..

http://cosmos.bcst.yahoo.com/up/player/popup/?cl=6393070

once again my papa's promises done

2008-02-11T00:33:00.000+08:00

oh well..
once again my hero..
aka papa..
aka father in heaven...
has gave me a new refreshing moment on stage singing..
today..
i was dead tired...
lol...
cos i've been in church like the whole day...

goodness..
you realize that as you grow older..
your body can't take it when u got to stay through..
but yes..
i prayed before i went on stage..
and i told God..
"so papa.. what's new today?
bring it on.. lol"
of cos again..
papa never tell me the answer..
he always wants me to discover it myself...
and yes today..
it was high at the start..
and at the end of the service..
man i tell you..
tears in my heart just bust out..
cos all of a sudden..
God reminded me about what i've been asking God about..
"when is it time for me to go?"

Matt 28:19-20
"Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them
in the name of the Father, the Son and of the Holy Spirit. Teach
These new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And
be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age."

Yes it's mission week..
so of cos we will be like..
God WHYY..
WHEN WILL I GO??
then we cry and cry..
but seriously when i was planning my future rout..
i was telling God about my plans..
and he asked me..
"aa girl.. acha you got so many thing..
when mission?"
then i'm like..
oh ya hor...
lol..
but yeah i told Papa..
"whenever you want me to..
BUT!
must let me be prepared first...
as in my heart prepared le then u tell me"
dont suddenly say tmr..
then i will faint..
lol..

but yeah..
I thank God that once again..
i'm doing the same thing...
serving on stage singing..
but it's something new..
THANK GOD!!
PAPA WA SU KAH LI!

lol..

Cheers mates...
=)

not too happy =(

2008-02-04T23:12:00.000+08:00

sigh..
i've no idea why..
but this evening was one of the bad evenings that i have...
how can a teddy bear be sad?
how can it be...
oh well..
after so much of planning..
all my plans are just down the drain...
my projects...
sigh..

now i've to pick myself up and continue to run the race..
it's tough..
but i've got to move on i know...

when the teddy bear is sad..
the teddy bear just wish to be in the mist of the crowd..
where no one knows her...
and just take photos of anything..
and just cry to God..

=_(

above all..
I still will get my job done..

Charis here are your photos.

pictures order

2008-02-03T23:51:00.000+08:00

alright..
thought i told mei jing that..
i was dying to blog yest..
right after edge..
but well as usual..
i got tired and i forgotten to blog...

lol...

before anything..
well i would wanna thank God today..
very simple reason..
cos he answered my prayer...

last month's worship ministry meeting..
we were asked to pray for each other..
on what do we expects frm God in this coming year..
and i told God and my 2 friends... (ber and ah tan)
that i wanna have a fresh feel every single time i serve on stage..
it's so true that..
many times..
we serve cos we were asked to..
cos of many different reasons...
but beyond asking God for me not to take each duty like a duty..
i've asked God for a fresh new feel...
just like sometimes..
we can do the same thing..
but each time is a new feel..
a new kinda of excitment that will burn in your heart...
(if you know what i mean lol).
but yeah..
indeed today evening service..
before service i was so tired..
lying around hoping that there will be a bed appear in front of me for me to sleep...
but hey..
guess what?
when i'm serving on stage..
God answered my prayer just right there...
i felt a new excitment...
a new feel to just move..
clap...
sing..
whatever u have..
lol..
it's just a feeling that i guess is beyond explaination..

haha alright alright...

pictures time...
i've too many pictures that i can't possibly upload it...
so anyhow this is what i've came out with..
if you see any pic that you like..
pls do place your orders (for free see i so good)
on my tag box..

enjoy.

je t'aime=)

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2008-02-02T00:16:00.001+08:00

My cup of drinks.

Today was SHOPPING DAY!!!
bought quite a few stuff..
really good deal..

like lydia said...
it feels as if like we are having a wrap up party..
with such deals..

S$55 bucks for...
2 Top (one formal and one casual)
1 Bottom..
from mark and spancer

LYDIA YOU ROCKS!!!

God do commnicates

2008-01-29T23:11:00.000+08:00

have you ever thought about...
the amount of ways God could possibly commnicates with you..

lol..
well to me..
God always commnicates with me in either a joking way..
or a serious way..
most of thhe time...
he ask me questions...
sigh...

*i'm a lazy thinker*

ok
but anyhow..
ya..
i realize..
so many things about God that i dont think about last time..
like God can talk to you machiam we "ah-ka-liao" for years...
all the funny lame things you normally talk to your friends about..
he does that also...
hahaa..

but ya lar...
i'm glad i knew him as my Father..
my God and my saviour...
cos he had gave me so much...
that i can never stop thanking him about...

aLRIGHT..
today no pictures to share..
so i've picked up one of the email that was send to me..
by my classmate..
kinda funny..

WAYS TO MAINTAIN A HEALTHY LEVEL OF INSANITY

1. At lunch time, Sit in your parked car with sunglasses on
and point a hair dryer at Passing Cars. See if they slow down.

2. Page Yourself Over the intercom. Don't Disguise your voice.

3. Every Time Someone asks you to do something, Ask if they want fries with that.

4. Put your garbage can on your desk and label it 'IN'.

5. Put Decaf in the Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks Once everyone has gotten over their
Caffeine Addictions, Switch to Espresso.

6. In The memo Field of all your checks, Write ' For Smuggling Diamonds'

7. Finish all your sentences with 'In Accordance with the prophecy.'

8. Don't use any punctuation.

9. As Often as possible, Skip rather than Walk.

10. Order a Diet water whenever you go out to eat, with a serious face.

11. Specify that your drive-through order is 'To Go'.

12. Sing along at the opera.

13. Go to a poetry recital and ask Why the poems dont's rhyme?

14. Put Mosquito Netting around your work area and play tropical sounds all day.

15. Five days in Advance, Tell your friends you can't attend their party because you're not in the mood.

16. Have your co-workers address you by your wrestling name, rock bottom.

17. When the money comes out the ATM, Scream 'I Won!, I Won!'

18. When leaving the zoo, start running towards the parking lot, yelling 'Run foro your lives, they're Loose!!'

19. Tell your children over dinner. 'Due to the economy, we are going to have to let one of you go.'

Wahhh
such a long list..
but yes..
remember to Tag ya..

Je'taime
=)

humble servant

2008-01-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

oh well..
today was indeed a very interesting day...
lol..

once again i'm at nus..
and met up with esther to have lunch..
and em..
yeah!
after lunch cos bernie can only meet me around 5pm..
so well esther just ask me..
you come for my lect lar..
lol...
i'm like serious?
then anyhow..
yes i set in the class...
while everyone is looking at their notes..
and trying to listen..
i was drawing..
HAHAH!!
em ya but i was a good student ok...
pay attention...

but yeah..

actually today..
wanted to share something..
yest during prayer meeting..
kinda got a prayer focus..
no idea why but..
in my heart..
while worshipping..
suddenly..
i just started to tell God..
Lord...
take this heart of mine...
make me as humble servant..
who just wanna deal with your business..
cos i knwo when..
i take care of yours..
you will take care of mine...

my future holds so many things..
so many things that i wanna do..
so many things i wanna learnt..
it's going to be a never ending learning process for my life..
but i know my papa up in heaven..
had plan the path for me..
and he will guide me...

amen =)

the cross country

2008-01-19T22:40:00.000+08:00

woooot...
ha..
what a day...
today was the corp youth acti day..
so well our region is incharge
so we had cross country..

well i was given a role to take photos so therefore..
i'm the photographer...
(duh!!!)

ok but yeah...
i...
ii...
i forgotten to CHARGE MY BATT!!!
goodness...
like of all things..
i forgotten about the batt...
sigh...
is that a sign of getting old?
or excited?

(sigh moving to 21 this year)...

anyhow...
yeah..
after which we went for edge...
Now we are moving into a series of message that entitles..
Heroes...
interesting message..
looking forward to hear more of it...
(i'm quite a fan of heroes the T.V show..
I'M AT SEASON 2 LIAO.. lol )

alright here are some of the pictures..

Programmes of the day.

The one and only thing that we want no matter what it takes..

This is Ah Tan whom have yawn even before the whole thing started.

Our banner!! whoo!!!

Nana who is quite sad cos she dont really feel like running..

Once again it's the Charlie Angels..

Warming up, upper body..

And more warm up..

People getting ready at the starting line.. andddd.. GO!!!

The other challenge of the day...

and after which...
my batt kinda went dead...
and now i'm charging it...
yup...
hope the photos are fun enough to entertain you..

vondotcom@gmail.com

明天会更好吗？

Running back to your arms

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Dreams

The Sister that i'm so proud of.

the mom that never sleeps

it wasn't just good... it was.. awesome! *thumbs up* tink*

Friends

The last lap

My Hope.

A start of a new beginning.

The blister finger

can anyone hear it?

It's time

One of those day

2:11am

The songs that teared my heart

You are worth it!

Oh wells.

All things works with God

We are helpless

There is a Purpose.

Speechless before God

60 Earth Hour

Who's fault?

I Just Want You~

Pictures.

Beautiful Saviour~

22rd Birthday and I'm glad.

MOVING TO A NEW HOME!!

The day before my Off day

Pictures of my past few days.

My new Phone's camera

Hello.. what's the problem with you eh? lol

Today is the day to Rejoice

The world is not going to be the same

new new.

Chinese new year

The Business that my Father in heaven is Running

Pocky? Jorckey? Chocky? whatever.. God is good ;)

Welcome 2009!

Today is the day!

All I need is You Lord, It's you Lord

God! You are just............ Great!

The battle of my mind and heart

2 more days

Counting down.

*takes a deeeeeeeep breath*

Near weekends.

Task #1: Flying off to Bali

First day of work

Starting of a new chapter

This is interesting.

Happy BirthDay Jidi! (@ the Super Poke Party)

Count your blessing!!

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I'M BLESS!!

-The more i seek you -

Wow! Amazing! Part 2

Wow! Amazing!

Business as Usual

Fighting the Flesh.

Just at thought about it.

thinking...

when will things change?

Finally! the first stepping stone.

the mark to the real world

I am a Friend of God

a fresh beginning

The special Gift

waiting for an answer

silence

Blessed!

.somehow it hurts.

.bless with what you have.

scary movie 5

.hot from the oven.

it's over

"Improv everywhere"

it wasn't just good... it was.. awesome! thumbs up tink*

takes a deeeeeeeep breath